Love.me
01-16-2013, 03:09 PM
ive been diagnosed with GAD.
I Dont know what to do. nothings helping me.
i have always been such an irritable person, ive never slept good, i just feel so at a loss, i dont know wat to do with myself. i am hurting everyone else around me and that hurts more knowing that...its like this vicious circle, and i dont even know wat a panic attack is really, like i do but im not sure if thats wat im expieriencing. all i know is noone understands me and i need help. i need to feel better i dont know wat to do anymore/ my thoughts are always racing and it gets in the way of me actually talking about a problem. i jump from topic to topic and im just all over the place from my emotions to my thoughts. my mind is my worst enemy i swear. im in constant what if mode. its gotten so much worse after i had my son. ugh i just dont know what to do. after todays cryfest, i decided enough is enough i need to do something. this is the only thing i could think of as a slight quick fix, i dont know wat to do anymore though, i feel like the only way out is to not be here anymore but that shouldnt even be an option!! :(
i have no confidence and this is nothing new to me. 25 years of tantrums and freakouts, and its not like ive been asking and looking for help. its almost been 10 years and ive gotten nowhere. im lucky to have a bf who knows how to deal with me but i can tell its wearing on him and i dont know wat to do. im so stubborn that even when something has nothing to do with him, i cant help but treat him like shit just because im feeling that way. i have animals and most people cry and hold them and feel better shortly after, well i dont i cant even look at my animals , i get so upset and overwhelmed that i get in my bed in the dark and just cryyy and cry and cry, this is NOTHING NEW to me like i really dont think im ever getting better. i feel so embarrassed even writing this. i hate feeling this way. and this is the only way ive ever felt. as i get older i just cant go on like this. id ont know what to do. im so misunderstood and how can i blame the people around me for dealing with this the way they do. i cant even deal with it and i treat everyone around me so horribly. i hate this
I Dont know what to do. nothings helping me.
i have always been such an irritable person, ive never slept good, i just feel so at a loss, i dont know wat to do with myself. i am hurting everyone else around me and that hurts more knowing that...its like this vicious circle, and i dont even know wat a panic attack is really, like i do but im not sure if thats wat im expieriencing. all i know is noone understands me and i need help. i need to feel better i dont know wat to do anymore/ my thoughts are always racing and it gets in the way of me actually talking about a problem. i jump from topic to topic and im just all over the place from my emotions to my thoughts. my mind is my worst enemy i swear. im in constant what if mode. its gotten so much worse after i had my son. ugh i just dont know what to do. after todays cryfest, i decided enough is enough i need to do something. this is the only thing i could think of as a slight quick fix, i dont know wat to do anymore though, i feel like the only way out is to not be here anymore but that shouldnt even be an option!! :(
i have no confidence and this is nothing new to me. 25 years of tantrums and freakouts, and its not like ive been asking and looking for help. its almost been 10 years and ive gotten nowhere. im lucky to have a bf who knows how to deal with me but i can tell its wearing on him and i dont know wat to do. im so stubborn that even when something has nothing to do with him, i cant help but treat him like shit just because im feeling that way. i have animals and most people cry and hold them and feel better shortly after, well i dont i cant even look at my animals , i get so upset and overwhelmed that i get in my bed in the dark and just cryyy and cry and cry, this is NOTHING NEW to me like i really dont think im ever getting better. i feel so embarrassed even writing this. i hate feeling this way. and this is the only way ive ever felt. as i get older i just cant go on like this. id ont know what to do. im so misunderstood and how can i blame the people around me for dealing with this the way they do. i cant even deal with it and i treat everyone around me so horribly. i hate this