manz82
01-16-2013, 03:19 AM
When I was pregnant with my second son, seven years ago, my husband left me for someone else. I was devastated and at seven months pregnant, faced the end of my pregnancy alone.
A year later we decided to give it another go - then he left me again!
At the time I was teaching special needs so could support my two children by myself, which I was proud of.
This is where it gets worse - I took him back again! And I have always felt like a mug, too soft and too needy where he's concerned. But he's all I've ever known, being with him since I was sixteen. (I'm thirty now).
We had been back together for two months when me and my two sons were involved in a serious car crash. Even writing this makes my heart race a bit! Luckily my sons were ok, but I sustained a back injury and it took months to get back on my feet and I will always have pain.
The funny thing is, I was thinking of ending it with my husband before the crash, but when it happened I started relying on him to help me, which I swore I would never do again.
Anyway, fast forward six months, my two cousins were involved in a serious bike crash and one of them nearly died. He was in intensive care for three weeks and I visited him, even though I despise hospitals. That's when the dizzy spells started, always when I was in the hospital.
At the same time, my sister got admitted to the same hospital as my cousins to be tested for all sorts of illnesses, ending with her having an operation and being quite poorly - my first panic episode happened when visiting her.
Then my dad had a crash on the motorway and all the family rushed to the hospital to be with him. Then BOOM! The panic gripped me and I ran away, from literally everything!
And I've been doing that ever since...
I'll leave it there for now, too much and you will all get bored of me!!! Ha. X
A year later we decided to give it another go - then he left me again!
At the time I was teaching special needs so could support my two children by myself, which I was proud of.
This is where it gets worse - I took him back again! And I have always felt like a mug, too soft and too needy where he's concerned. But he's all I've ever known, being with him since I was sixteen. (I'm thirty now).
We had been back together for two months when me and my two sons were involved in a serious car crash. Even writing this makes my heart race a bit! Luckily my sons were ok, but I sustained a back injury and it took months to get back on my feet and I will always have pain.
The funny thing is, I was thinking of ending it with my husband before the crash, but when it happened I started relying on him to help me, which I swore I would never do again.
Anyway, fast forward six months, my two cousins were involved in a serious bike crash and one of them nearly died. He was in intensive care for three weeks and I visited him, even though I despise hospitals. That's when the dizzy spells started, always when I was in the hospital.
At the same time, my sister got admitted to the same hospital as my cousins to be tested for all sorts of illnesses, ending with her having an operation and being quite poorly - my first panic episode happened when visiting her.
Then my dad had a crash on the motorway and all the family rushed to the hospital to be with him. Then BOOM! The panic gripped me and I ran away, from literally everything!
And I've been doing that ever since...
I'll leave it there for now, too much and you will all get bored of me!!! Ha. X