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ChiChi
01-12-2013, 05:04 PM
I was always happy but insecure as a child... afraid I couldn't handle confrontations... fraid my mother would die... Afraid a nuclear bomb wld come....
Fear has stayed with me all my life... now the fear is about not being able to support myself financially.... being alone 1 day.... never making friends.
I learned in therapy that fear is anxiety... it gets in the way of my life and paralyzes me from acting for my own benefit.
I have also learned that stress triggers it... Last month I had the usual stress trying to pay and juggle bills.... I am under the poverty level... That is enough to cause me anxiety each month.... in addition my best friend's husband died suddenly Christmas Eve... my mother has to be in a wheelchair as of Christmas Eve... and I was off of work without pay for 3 weeks...
My anxiety went out of kilter... this summer I had decreased my anxiety medication to.1 half pill in the morning and 1 half pill in the evening... I had been taking
3 or 4 pills a day..... but after those stresses, I had to increase 1 half of a pill more per day to feel like I could handle liFe... and I have continued this to feel normal.
When it was out of kilter I felt extremely insecure needing a lot of reassurance from my friend whose husband had died... I did not want to put my worries on to her.. But I needed reassurance from her... also, I did not feel that I would be able to find a job that is full time as I currently am underemployed and have been for 6 years.
I felt the fear in my chest and felt that I could not handle life.
I hope this will help someone... I know that my friends who do not experience anxiety or depression cannot understand my problems and cannot help me... I was glad to find this website to turn to.

SunnieDebris
01-12-2013, 05:55 PM
Hey there, ChiChi, and welcome. I'm glad you found us. It sounds like you've been dealing with anxiety for a while. What kind of medication are you taking? I'm unclear on how much you're currently taking. You feel a benefit, but you're taking a lot and worried about that? Medication is there for us to give us space to work within ourselves, to explore what is triggering it and ways to slow it down or change its direction. If you are under a lot of stress, it is not unreasonable to need more medication for a limited time. Be good to yourself! You are worth it!

ChiChi
01-12-2013, 06:30 PM
Hey there, ChiChi, and welcome. I'm glad you found us. It sounds like you've been dealing with anxiety for a while. What kind of medication are you taking? I'm unclear on how much you're currently taking. You feel a benefit, but you're taking a lot and worried about that? Medication is there for us to give us space to work within ourselves, to explore what is triggering it and ways to slow it down or change its direction. If you are under a lot of stress, it is not unreasonable to need more medication for a limited time. Be good to yourself! You are worth it!

I decreased meds after Dr suggestion..he said to see if i cld do it...if not was ok....been on them 11 yrs now along with antidepress...yeah...guess i thot anxiety was.better....but stresses showed me its there and all i can do is manage it.