Think im going to get help this year

[jhunter89]

So I've suffered with this all my life, even as a small child I didn't mix well with other kids. Never been to see anyone about it, but I am really fucking fed up with it now. Been thinking about going to the doctors for a while but keep putting it off... I am a bit scared. How does someone who is afraid to speak spill their guts to a therapist or whatever?
I just walked up to my bank to pay some money in and on the way someone I used to be friends with spotted me ( i didn't see them or I would NOT have gone near them) and called my name to which i replied "alright" and she was like "yeah, you?" And I murmured "yeah" and walked on. My brain told me to run and get away from this situation and when I got in the bank I was all flustered and fumbling about, head spinning. I don't want to be this person, i wanna be bubbly, i wanna say "hey how are you? What you been up to?" If I see people I know, i don't want to hide! How fucking ridiculous! So I hope I can force myself to get some help this year, I know it's not going to come to me.
Rant over.

[alankay]

The hard part is going in. After you get started it's not that hard but the anticipatory anxiety can be bad but I hope you follow through with this. Alankay

[jhunter89]

Cheers Al :) did you have therapy/cbt or whatever? Are you more outgoing now?

[Mk1710]

Hello I think the best thing you could do is get help hiding it away putting it to the back of your mind is ok for a while but sounds like your getting to the point where you just want it to stop I think you should get the help its the hardest part but once you've done I guarantee everyday will get better and better doctors will be patient with you and let you take all the time you need to open up you have to start to see a end to it :) good luck best wishes

[temperancebrennan]

It's good that you say you want to get help. That's the first step. If you're worried about talking to someone face to face, how about over the phone first? I can message you the number of a company called No Panic that my GP gave me incase I ever needed to speak to someone. Would you like the number?
Step by step you'll get there :)

[jhunter89]

Hello I think the best thing you could do is get help hiding it away putting it to the back of your mind is ok for a while but sounds like your getting to the point where you just want it to stop I think you should get the help its the hardest part but once you've done I guarantee everyday will get better and better doctors will be patient with you and let you take all the time you need to open up you have to start to see a end to it :) good luck best wishes

Thankyou! :)

[jhunter89]

It's good that you say you want to get help. That's the first step. If you're worried about talking to someone face to face, how about over the phone first? I can message you the number of a company called No Panic that my GP gave me incase I ever needed to speak to someone. Would you like the number?
Step by step you'll get there :)

I can't do talking on the phone either! But thankyou anyway for taking time to reply :) i was thinking maybe writing everything down in a letter and handing it in. Feels like ive got a huge mountain to climb, I'm just not quite ready to take that first step :(

[temperancebrennan]

Just remember that you have everyone here behind you for support! :)
If you ever decide that you want to make a call then message me & I'll give you the number.
Good luck

[jhunter89]

Still haven't done it. I wrote a letter that I was considering showing the only doctor I have felt comfortable with and i find out the other day she's retired!

[Enduronman]

Well, as long as you keep your hair like that and wear that f**ked up tutu, then a note won't be required! trust me on that one...THROW ME THE BALL COACH! LMAO!!

[jhunter89]

Haha. Heyyyy buddy! long time no speak! How's things down in Scandinavia-town?

[Enduronman]

Oh you know, its so wonderful and dreamy!! NOT! Actually, its ok and better then it and I was last year. How are you doing??? :)

[jhunter89]

Aw good to hear man! I am pretty much the same as the last time we spoke...maybe a tad worse! Was in the states for 3 weeks, got back a week ago.. Twas fun! I had a note on my phone of all those supplements you told me to buy aaaages ago and I never did and that very phone got fucked after i dropped it in the sea in Florida.. Bahahaha. Good to speak to you again brah!

[Enduronman]

Man when are you gonna be able to kick this in the ass!! Cmon Ace!!! :)

[jhunter89]

Haha. I wish I knew! Does it become incurable after a certain length of time? I wish I did have the reflexes of a cat and the speed of a mongoose hahaha or even the instincts of a Viking :)

[Enduronman]

Quick! Throw me a spear!! LMAO!! Vikings are STOOOPID that's why I got all these problems!! :)

[Enduronman]

and no, it isn't an incurable disease Ace! :)

[jhunter89]

Haha. You are far from stupid my friend. Completely off your trolley but highly intelligent and resourceful!

[Enduronman]

Agreed! Completely off my rocker, or Iron Horse I'd say!! YIPPEE!! ..grrrr.... LMAO! That avatar makes me fuggin laugh everytime I look at it too. Don't EVER change it!

[jhunter89]

Haha. Ok I'll keep it just for you! I haven't been on here in ages but might lurk about if you're back... Your comments make me LARF me friggin socks off!

[alankay]

Well it helped to air out what I was feeling and why I was feeling that way. Yes it helped to talk about it, explore why I might feel that way and how to move forward. I'm not super outgoing but much better around people. On the quiet side but well within what folks think is "normal". I was exagerating things in my head allot. Alankay

[jhunter89]

I think I may have mild BDD. I hate the way i look and sound and think people are always judging me and laughing at how I look and sound.

[Christopher H.]

Hey man, finally seeking medical help for my anxiety was one of the best choices I have made in my life to the point I wish my parents tried and helped me with medicine when I was younger. Anyways, don't worry about what the doctor/therapist may think about you, their main interest in trying to help you. Don't fool yourself in thinking that the negative perceptions of yourself that pop in your head are shared by the doctor sitting across from you. Just make sure to get across how you truly feel because if you don't express your struggles completely then they might not be able to help you correctly. Good luck brotha.