Tritter
01-08-2013, 08:48 PM
Hey everyone I'm new to this cite but not new to anxiety. I've been dealing with anxiety since I was 17 and am now 28. I'm not really sure how all this works but I definitely could use some support in all aspects of anxiety/panic attacks. Not only am I afraid of taking anti-anxiety medications, I'm also afraid to take any medication in fear of having a reaction, even a simple rash would send me in a panic to the hospital thinking my throat were going to close! It takes a lot out of me to take anything, even an antibiotic. After taking anything I focus on looking at my skin to see if I'm having an allergic reaction and the worse part of all is I have excema (not sure if spelling is correct) so my skin is very sensitive and the smallest thing will put a welp on it. I constantly worry, and constantly moving, like very high-strung. I think there isn't enough time to get things done and if something goes out of my plan I freak. I freak when I feel my house is a mess, but I also work full-time and have kids so getting messing is going to happen. The problem is I overwhelm myself and try to get everything done at once, I feel that if I do things gradually that it won't ever get done and sometimes really doesn't. If I don't get a proper amount of sleep I get very anxious, and am addicted to Pepsi which I've been told is terrible for anxiety. I always feel tired and want naps all the time it seems. At times I get so emotional it seems for weeks and just want to cry over nothing and everything all at the same time. I've been on zoloft since I was 17 and people keep telling me that maybe its just not working anymore. That scars the crap out of me! I like zoloft because I'm comfortable with it, I don't like to be out of my comfort zone. So I went to the doctor and he has decided to put me on lexapro which I stupidly looked up the side effects on and really really really don't want to take now. He also prescribed me ativan for when I'm having an attack but I'm so scared of medication that I'd be way to afraid to take it, especially during an attack. I work 12 hour shifts at my job and it takes a great deal for me to just make it through the day. Even just talking about my anxiety makes me anxious!! Help Please????