FrankWolfe53
01-05-2013, 02:55 PM
Okay I have posted a few times, my anxiety is subsiding but my depression and depersonalization are still there. Here is my full story of anxiety, they always come to me when i do a stimulant. First was in 2007 when i was in high school and would do caffiene pills to help me get going and used them before I lifted weights. But one day I took them without working out and went to the movies and my heart was racing and wouldn't stop and than I started getting tunnel vision and my hands started to get tingly but all i had to do was get up and walk around and it went away. Than I remember staying up all night coming back from chicago lollapalooza 2008, an 8 hour car ride and I remember being so thirsty and just slamming a mountain dew, and being dead tired when i got home i realized that my body did not want rest and that kind of freaked me out, eventually fell asleep on the couch about 5 hours after I got back home. Than in 2010 I am pretty sure that I was addicted to coffee, two cups in the morning, a cup for each lunch and dinner than i would even have one later in the evening. I did this for about 2-3 weeks and then one night I was already really tired but decided to drink a cup of instant coffee, and went to sleep right after that almost. but could not sleep and my heart rate went out of whack and I started to think that i did something to my heart and started sweating, than for about a month my anxiety would not stop but eventually went away but came back when i went on long car rides. Than on Dec 21st I went to an end of the world party and I got pretty drunk, and there were people with cocaine. Please don't judge. But I did that and for about a week and a half my anxiety would not stop and it had never been that bad before almost like a week long panic attack it felt. like I was on the verge of having a panic attack for a whole week and a half, it was miserable. not to mention the depersonalization and just constantly thinking that I screwed my self up. But the constant anxiousness is subsiding. but still feel depressed.