sparkle40
12-28-2012, 11:05 AM
Ive always been a very happy go lucky, easy going kind of person..i guess that all changed when i met my husband 15 years ago. Id been a single parent to 2 small children for a long time and if im honest, he seemed like the answer to all our prayers. Maybe i didnt feel an instant connection or chemistry, but he was a good person and i thought i could make do with that..sounds awful to say. But 15 years down the line, hes sucked the life out of me emotionally, he is a very negative, anti social person and he has made me feel like this too. I have noticed ive lost touch with family and friends...i used to always make a joke of everything and be very bubbly but now im a constant worrier, get panic attacks, and since our marriage is starting to break down ( last few years) ive become depressed and often have thoughts of either running away or doing something stupid.
I dont blame him for turning me like this, but i do think he has worn me down so much that i now dont have the self esteem or motivation to change things.
Ive not seen a doctor yet, thought i could manage without anti deppressants but now my anxiety has reached fever pitch, i now admit i need to see someone.
I dont blame him for turning me like this, but i do think he has worn me down so much that i now dont have the self esteem or motivation to change things.
Ive not seen a doctor yet, thought i could manage without anti deppressants but now my anxiety has reached fever pitch, i now admit i need to see someone.