ElleF
12-22-2012, 03:56 PM
I have two big problems at the moment and to be honest I just can't see a way out at the moment. I feel like I'm a prisoner!
I have social anxiety and have done since I was around 11 years old.
The anxiety began when I started to have problems with my bowel which I later found to be IBS. I have a fear of being around others incase I smell or don't make it to the bathroom in time as awful as that sounds it's not likely at all but it's something I deeply fear. I do work though! Only because I am a care worker and work alone with my client. I find I have no anxiety at work unless we have visitors or go out somewhere.
Outside of work.... well I rarely leave the house unless I have to. Which brings me to my next problem which is my Brother.
I am constantly reduced to tears on a daily basis as he is so nasty to me. He's a grown adult like myself but enjoys upsetting me. He will follow me when I walk away from him and continue to yell from outside my bedroom. He often uses my IBS and anxiety to really upset me and it works. Usually infront of others to embarrass me!
I talk to my parents and they just pass it off and do nothing! But they don't understand that I feel so trapped. I cannot leave this house as I'm stuck with these problems and my Brother is making my "safe place" a living nightmare.
I can't have a serious talk with him about this as anything I do tell him will be later used to humiliate me as he always does. And I cannot avoid him.
If I ever loose my job I don't think I could cope with being in the house 24/7 with him.
I can do nothing and I can't get out the house when it gets too much. It should be so easy to go for a walk when he starts with me but I just can't.
I feel so trapped and alone right now nobody understands me and the my parents, the people I love and trust refuse to make him leave me alone.
These two problems together are too much! One is bad enough. I'm under constant stress and upset I just can't take it anymore.
There are so many things I wish I could do with my life but I can't. Does anyone have similar problems? I'd love a little help.
I have social anxiety and have done since I was around 11 years old.
The anxiety began when I started to have problems with my bowel which I later found to be IBS. I have a fear of being around others incase I smell or don't make it to the bathroom in time as awful as that sounds it's not likely at all but it's something I deeply fear. I do work though! Only because I am a care worker and work alone with my client. I find I have no anxiety at work unless we have visitors or go out somewhere.
Outside of work.... well I rarely leave the house unless I have to. Which brings me to my next problem which is my Brother.
I am constantly reduced to tears on a daily basis as he is so nasty to me. He's a grown adult like myself but enjoys upsetting me. He will follow me when I walk away from him and continue to yell from outside my bedroom. He often uses my IBS and anxiety to really upset me and it works. Usually infront of others to embarrass me!
I talk to my parents and they just pass it off and do nothing! But they don't understand that I feel so trapped. I cannot leave this house as I'm stuck with these problems and my Brother is making my "safe place" a living nightmare.
I can't have a serious talk with him about this as anything I do tell him will be later used to humiliate me as he always does. And I cannot avoid him.
If I ever loose my job I don't think I could cope with being in the house 24/7 with him.
I can do nothing and I can't get out the house when it gets too much. It should be so easy to go for a walk when he starts with me but I just can't.
I feel so trapped and alone right now nobody understands me and the my parents, the people I love and trust refuse to make him leave me alone.
These two problems together are too much! One is bad enough. I'm under constant stress and upset I just can't take it anymore.
There are so many things I wish I could do with my life but I can't. Does anyone have similar problems? I'd love a little help.