storm99
12-18-2012, 04:17 PM
Hello my name is michael, and im a 23 year old male from the UK. I need some reasurrance that i am not going mad, and that it is just anxitey and a little depression.
It all start in September i went for a regular eye test, and got my new glasses. When i first put them on i knew they never felt right, but thought i just needed to adjust. However i started getting really bad headaches, dizzy and blurred vision. So i went back serveral times to spec savers, they kept saying i was ok and so i went to the doctors and all was ok there. Then after 8 weeks, the error was spotted and corrected and new glasses were given. however im sticking with my old ones and im scared to put my new ones on
So i started wondering if i had a brian tumor, was i going to die and became abit weepy, then i started to have sleep problems. I could not get to sleep for ages and it never felt rested when i did sleep, and i will admit i thought if it never went away would i have to kill myself. Then i was feeding the fear reading rubbish on the net, was i schiztophrenic (spelling)or another health problem so i was crying and becoming dazed as if i was in a dream world.
When i was going to bed, i was getting a pounding heart, pins and needles going hot.
So i went to the doctors and he gave me a sleep aid, not sure if it was an antidepressent, and i took 2 and felt rubbish. and went to emergency docs as i could not sleep and was given 4 sleeping tablets. They worked for abit and chilled me out.
Then i lost 10.00 and got really upset thought i was losing my mind and going crazy. however i have always been a forgetful person. :(, then i started having kill thoughts, at first it was what if i pushed my sister in road, what if the pepsi i poured was posion. This scared the hell out of me and made me even more weepy and crying more. So i went to the doctors and he said i had aniexty and possible slight depression, and he referred me to a therapist as i wanted a no pill option. Plus i was still reading the rubbish on the net, so he took my phone from me and gave it to my mum and told me to cut it out and get nytol and get back into a good sleeping pattern. sometimes i feel like people are getting at me, saying its in my head, or if i do something wrong, i know there not though. they are just telling me its a mistake. Ive been shakey at times to.
If i hear a noise i have to constantly ask for reasurrance that im not hearing things or voices and im really scared i have schizophrina (As one of my mams sisters have it, which makes me worse)
Then the thoughts and that subsided for abit ( 2weeks), and then it was the sleep problem. taking me ages to get off and getting up a few times. Then i had a bad night where i was up all night cry and now the kill thoughts have come back, however there not as strong but im not getting upset so now im worried my mind is starting to accept these. Is this just anxiety ?
I think thats everything
It all start in September i went for a regular eye test, and got my new glasses. When i first put them on i knew they never felt right, but thought i just needed to adjust. However i started getting really bad headaches, dizzy and blurred vision. So i went back serveral times to spec savers, they kept saying i was ok and so i went to the doctors and all was ok there. Then after 8 weeks, the error was spotted and corrected and new glasses were given. however im sticking with my old ones and im scared to put my new ones on
So i started wondering if i had a brian tumor, was i going to die and became abit weepy, then i started to have sleep problems. I could not get to sleep for ages and it never felt rested when i did sleep, and i will admit i thought if it never went away would i have to kill myself. Then i was feeding the fear reading rubbish on the net, was i schiztophrenic (spelling)or another health problem so i was crying and becoming dazed as if i was in a dream world.
When i was going to bed, i was getting a pounding heart, pins and needles going hot.
So i went to the doctors and he gave me a sleep aid, not sure if it was an antidepressent, and i took 2 and felt rubbish. and went to emergency docs as i could not sleep and was given 4 sleeping tablets. They worked for abit and chilled me out.
Then i lost 10.00 and got really upset thought i was losing my mind and going crazy. however i have always been a forgetful person. :(, then i started having kill thoughts, at first it was what if i pushed my sister in road, what if the pepsi i poured was posion. This scared the hell out of me and made me even more weepy and crying more. So i went to the doctors and he said i had aniexty and possible slight depression, and he referred me to a therapist as i wanted a no pill option. Plus i was still reading the rubbish on the net, so he took my phone from me and gave it to my mum and told me to cut it out and get nytol and get back into a good sleeping pattern. sometimes i feel like people are getting at me, saying its in my head, or if i do something wrong, i know there not though. they are just telling me its a mistake. Ive been shakey at times to.
If i hear a noise i have to constantly ask for reasurrance that im not hearing things or voices and im really scared i have schizophrina (As one of my mams sisters have it, which makes me worse)
Then the thoughts and that subsided for abit ( 2weeks), and then it was the sleep problem. taking me ages to get off and getting up a few times. Then i had a bad night where i was up all night cry and now the kill thoughts have come back, however there not as strong but im not getting upset so now im worried my mind is starting to accept these. Is this just anxiety ?
I think thats everything