Shyaamist
12-09-2012, 06:00 PM
Hello all. I guess this is more of a vent but I feel like I am among people who understand a bit of what I am going through.
First, I have what I see as an irrational fear. I take ambian at night to sleep. (I have insomnia) So, at night, I have this fear when I use the bathroom that maybe I'm not actually in the bathroom and I'm actually somewhere else. To be clear, I have never done this... I just remember sitting there some nights thinking "am I in the right place to be doing this?"
Does anyone know if (at least what I am calling it) over stimulation is a cause/effect? Seems like lately if I'm in a place where people are being obnoxious, loud and all up in my business, and babies/children are crying/whining/screaming... its just to much for me. This seems to really be the big one at the moment!!! I don't mind crowds/lots of people.
I've had depression for 20+ years, but the anxiety is a fairly recent development (2ish years). My meds no longer seem to be helping. (I have 30 until my new insurance kicks in before I can go to the doctors). I learned a long time ago how to talk my way out of being with a psychologist/psychiatrist. I say what I have to in order to get out of there. I don't trust them. I feel like they only listen because they are being paid to do so and really could care less. I have given up as much caffeine as possible. I still like a bit of coffee every now and then. I have read books and forums on different ways to control my symptoms and have had no luck. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Thanks for listening!
First, I have what I see as an irrational fear. I take ambian at night to sleep. (I have insomnia) So, at night, I have this fear when I use the bathroom that maybe I'm not actually in the bathroom and I'm actually somewhere else. To be clear, I have never done this... I just remember sitting there some nights thinking "am I in the right place to be doing this?"
Does anyone know if (at least what I am calling it) over stimulation is a cause/effect? Seems like lately if I'm in a place where people are being obnoxious, loud and all up in my business, and babies/children are crying/whining/screaming... its just to much for me. This seems to really be the big one at the moment!!! I don't mind crowds/lots of people.
I've had depression for 20+ years, but the anxiety is a fairly recent development (2ish years). My meds no longer seem to be helping. (I have 30 until my new insurance kicks in before I can go to the doctors). I learned a long time ago how to talk my way out of being with a psychologist/psychiatrist. I say what I have to in order to get out of there. I don't trust them. I feel like they only listen because they are being paid to do so and really could care less. I have given up as much caffeine as possible. I still like a bit of coffee every now and then. I have read books and forums on different ways to control my symptoms and have had no luck. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Thanks for listening!