bellaLove09
11-01-2012, 06:39 PM
I'm in need to speak with others who can relate to me and help cope with my extreme anxiety. I have always suffered from anxiety as a child but never to this extent. I have been to therapist but they don't seem to help much. It's hard to speak about it to people who don't relate. They look at you like you are crazy.
I've gone through a lot these past few years. My grandmother whom raised me past away suffering from pancreatic cancer. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with in my life because she's all I had. I went through some much heart break and pain with jealous family that I have no one. Not long after my grandmothers death I got married and had a beautiful little girl. She's my world. It's not till after I had her when I started to have really bad anxiety. I started working in a ER. And that's when it all hit me. You hear about sickness and you see it from an outside point of view but when I started to view it first hand I started to feel symptoms of those who were sick in me. Chest pain, SOB, lightheaded, near syncope, constant migraines, nervous, arm tingling and a little heavy. I am always worrying that I am having a heart attack or a stroke. I am 24 years old and in good health. No serious family history. I should feeling youthful and enjoy every moment of my life with my daughter. But instead my mind is occupied with fear of death. I am always scared something is going to happen to me. I have to force myself to places like the mall, grocery store, or even outside outings. I get extremely nervous. I cry because I feel like a horrible mother. I just want all my thoughts to stop!! I tell my self I'm ok, I take deep breaths and try to keep a positive state of mind. But all I do is worry. It's the worst feeling in the world. I can't go out with my husband because I get extremely anxious around people. It's hard to go out to eat or even to the movies. I can't even have a drink because I am so in tune with my body that I get even worst when I feel my heart pounding faster. I am scared what if something is really happening to me but I can't define real or from anxiety because everyday I have anxiety and worry. I can't take medication because I am afraid I will have some kind if allergic reaction. I have also tried to work out a little but I start to freak out and get chest pain. I am losing my mind feeling this way. Any suggestions?? Please don't judge
I've gone through a lot these past few years. My grandmother whom raised me past away suffering from pancreatic cancer. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with in my life because she's all I had. I went through some much heart break and pain with jealous family that I have no one. Not long after my grandmothers death I got married and had a beautiful little girl. She's my world. It's not till after I had her when I started to have really bad anxiety. I started working in a ER. And that's when it all hit me. You hear about sickness and you see it from an outside point of view but when I started to view it first hand I started to feel symptoms of those who were sick in me. Chest pain, SOB, lightheaded, near syncope, constant migraines, nervous, arm tingling and a little heavy. I am always worrying that I am having a heart attack or a stroke. I am 24 years old and in good health. No serious family history. I should feeling youthful and enjoy every moment of my life with my daughter. But instead my mind is occupied with fear of death. I am always scared something is going to happen to me. I have to force myself to places like the mall, grocery store, or even outside outings. I get extremely nervous. I cry because I feel like a horrible mother. I just want all my thoughts to stop!! I tell my self I'm ok, I take deep breaths and try to keep a positive state of mind. But all I do is worry. It's the worst feeling in the world. I can't go out with my husband because I get extremely anxious around people. It's hard to go out to eat or even to the movies. I can't even have a drink because I am so in tune with my body that I get even worst when I feel my heart pounding faster. I am scared what if something is really happening to me but I can't define real or from anxiety because everyday I have anxiety and worry. I can't take medication because I am afraid I will have some kind if allergic reaction. I have also tried to work out a little but I start to freak out and get chest pain. I am losing my mind feeling this way. Any suggestions?? Please don't judge