Self-esteem

[shmackay21]

I have a really hard time with my self esteem. I'm constantly comparing myself to other girls. I am 22, married with a 4 yr old and pregnant due in jan. my depression was under control pre pregnancy. But now I feel it's taking over again. My relationship with my husband is pretty good. We have had our struggles. He has broken my trust a few times so its hard to know what is true or not. We just got new cell phones and I've noticed that his Internet history is constantly being cleared(yes I check his phone) I automatically assume he's looking at things I wouldn't appreciate. I hate bringing things like this up with him because it makes him defensive and I honestly don't believe his answers. But I feel so depressed that I don't know what to do. I'm feeling like I'm not good enough for him. I want to feel like I'm the only girl he thinks about, but that's not the case. He knows I struggle with depression and self esteem, but he doesn't do as much as I think he could to help me. I don't know what I need. Is anyone in my same situation?

[phoenixphyre]

I have a really hard time with my self esteem. I'm constantly comparing myself to other girls. I am 22, married with a 4 yr old and pregnant due in jan. my depression was under control pre pregnancy. But now I feel it's taking over again. My relationship with my husband is pretty good. We have had our struggles. He has broken my trust a few times so its hard to know what is true or not. We just got new cell phones and I've noticed that his Internet history is constantly being cleared(yes I check his phone) I automatically assume he's looking at things I wouldn't appreciate. I hate bringing things like this up with him because it makes him defensive and I honestly don't believe his answers. But I feel so depressed that I don't know what to do. I'm feeling like I'm not good enough for him. I want to feel like I'm the only girl he thinks about, but that's not the case. He knows I struggle with depression and self esteem, but he doesn't do as much as I think he could to help me. I don't know what I need. Is anyone in my same situation?

I have a wife who is oblivious to my anxiety if that counts

[Audrey00]

Same stuff I go through with my boyfriend always feels like he is up to something