relaxchillax
10-19-2012, 03:19 PM
Hey there I wanted to put input on meds which I was taking during half my life. I have been on many anti depression medications maybe most the ones I have read on these forums. I started out with bad Schizoaffective Disorders which came on to me from substance abuse, I started out taking zyprexa for about 8 years now. Stopped taking that 6 days now dunno what to feel about it. I took many types anti depression medications too many to name some worked for a year some less than that, if you want to name some I can just say yes to the ones I have taken. During that 8 to 10 year time taken so many doses of benzos the longest has been valium had that in my system for 4 years. Recently I followed the path of not dealing with benzos I didn't taper off my valium use I just cold turkey few months ago. I been dealing with panic attacks while on valium I had one time in my script was on a dose of 50mg of valium, I still go nuts feeling others were mocking me laughing, pointing fingers, I just went nuts to find some way to quickly kill myself. If it wouldn't stop I wanted to jump out of cars, take poison at one time I thoughts by over dosing on water would kill me which that failed and ppl made a mockery out of me for doing it. I been depressed as well I always felt like life was nothing, I been on all SSRIs, SNRIs, and Atypical ones. I am now on Aventyl 75mgs on it for 4 months I still don't feel anything new or good for me I still feel like there's nothing to live for I have no feelings for things in life none. Now that I been put on Seroquel 25mgs three times a day, I am not sure what this med can do for me but I still am over protective of things. I feel clam but I am just waiting to see how it works when I become overwhelmed by lots of ppl. I just hate going out in the real world I hate having those feelings of being dead or escaping some how with out being mocked or teased. I get panic attacks while being under pressure way of things. I went 3 days with out eating anything and my sleep is less important to me. I have been told ppl take it to go to sleep I feel the opposite of it, there days I don't eat or sleep just worrying when things will be better for me. I will continue to write about it and whats its helped with my panic attacks. It's just been 4 days now I am getting used to it. Things I take for preventive measures St. Johns Wort (300mgs), and 5-HTP (200mgs). I hope this can help will update.