MLeFay
10-15-2012, 07:51 AM
I realized that anxiety is really self induced? I think that is what others think? And I am starting to think that it is. If so I really don't think there's anything negative about it. I've been thru too much that others haven't for one. I'm a better person than everyone else I've ever met for two. And third of all, if I am doing it to myself I am crucifying myself and ruining my own entire life daily so there is nothing to look down on. It's not like I want to be miserable okay and if I do then that's not my fault. I'm not selfish. I'm actually less selfish. I'm not really sure what this all is viewed as but I know what it means for me. It gets tiring but we are doing it to ourselves on purpose right? We secretly like it or need it?
Is that what all behavioral problems are about or alot of them?
I think it's my personality type plus other factors that ended up resulting in anxiety. Or it's an effect of depression. I dunno the reason why but I am absolutely positive that it doesn't mean anything negative but might mean something positive about someone.
Ah well I can't deal with other people. I can't stand when people talk to me I am so bad at talking to other people and then I say the silliest braindead things and sound like a child. Like overly sweet but like something is wrong. It's starting to bother me. I cause horrible anxiety problems in every store I go in. I think I do it on purpose. It becomes horrifying so why am I doing it to myself? Self destruction?
I am not quite sure.............
I might have to use this forum to vent.
If I'm rude don't hate me I get that way by isolating myself which again, is not my fault. If anything the fault belongs to others.
Is that what all behavioral problems are about or alot of them?
I think it's my personality type plus other factors that ended up resulting in anxiety. Or it's an effect of depression. I dunno the reason why but I am absolutely positive that it doesn't mean anything negative but might mean something positive about someone.
Ah well I can't deal with other people. I can't stand when people talk to me I am so bad at talking to other people and then I say the silliest braindead things and sound like a child. Like overly sweet but like something is wrong. It's starting to bother me. I cause horrible anxiety problems in every store I go in. I think I do it on purpose. It becomes horrifying so why am I doing it to myself? Self destruction?
I am not quite sure.............
I might have to use this forum to vent.
If I'm rude don't hate me I get that way by isolating myself which again, is not my fault. If anything the fault belongs to others.