anyone there?

[PanicBaby]

its 1 30 am in here and i cant sleep,.. i keep thinking about my parents who keeps on fighting,.. my dad works in a city 3 hrs from here and he usually comes home every weekend but he didnt came home this week,.. im scared of what is happening,im thinking they might get a divorce,i love them both even if we would have misunderstandings all the time,im not in good terms with them either,but still,im afraid that they would make me chose who to live with and ill chose to live by myself because i cant bare living with one of them knowing that the other one is probably depressed and im a coward person i couldnt even sleep if one of my parents isnt in the same room as me and im a teenager.. .. i tried getting some sleep but whenever i close my eyes its all that i could think of, i can hear my heart beat so fast and i feel terrible and sick,i feel so scared that when i sit up because i couldnt force myself to sleep my hands would be shaking terribly,.. what should i do? i feel so restless and tired,...

[Mae]

I'm so sorry to hear this. My dad is overworked lately and often gets in grumpy moods and my parents start fighting, ect. If my parents divorced my mother would die because she is too sick to even do simple house chores. She would never afford her medication & food. So basically I can relate to you.
Try to think like this if you can; It isn't in your control so being miserable will solve nothing. Get some sleep and brainstorm ideas on how to help your parents' relationship work! Maybe tell them both how you're feeling right now and your opinion on their behavour lately. Do what you can and know that you at least tried :)

Also, it is no shame to be a teenager and be extremely close to your parents! I think that is an excellent quality! =]
- Mae

[Rowlz]

We're all here for you :)