blabby_peach
10-08-2012, 06:50 PM
Hello everyone! I'm 32 years old,married with a 3 year old son. I'm glad to be able to find this site to vent on what I'm feeling. A month ago, my mom's first cousin died of a brain aneurysm at the age of 35. Out of nowhere after hearing the news, I just suddenly panicked. So, I googled about it and after that I convinced my husband to buy me sphygmomanometer so I can check
my blood pressure. I am monitoring my blood pressure not just daily but every hour.!I know I'm going too far there. Didn't want to eat pork, chicken and beef aside from fish for the reason that it may increase my cholesterol level. One day, after doing my Zumba, I felt lightheaded. Of course,. Of course, it freaked me out some more thinking I'm having aneurysm. I have my husband check my pulse and pupil if it is dilaed or not. He assured me it is normal. But, I didn't believe him otherwise. I finally told him we will see a doctor and when we did, the doctor said it was acute sinusitis. After 10 days of antibiotic, it seemed its the same.. Nothing has changed. It's the only thing I think every single day before and after going to bed. I still constantly check my BP and its normal. Then I googled about chronic dizziness and I found about the brain tumor, , MS, stroke, and all the worst illness there is. My anxiety gotten severe that I t gave me heart palpitations, gas, worsen my dizziness, and tightness in the chest. After which, I then thought I was having a heart attack. I told my husband to see another doctor because of lightheadedness is not going away. I'm beginning to have foggy vision every now and then. I havave to squint my eyes. Seen another GP and she checked my ears and diagnosed me with Eustachian tube dysfunction. I was relieved for awhe. After the check up, I actually felt better. Just tired eyes and face pressure where the sinuses are located. After 10 days of prescribed decongestant, checked myself and still feelin lightheaded and felt my ears are clogged. So here I am freaking out some more than ever and is having more and more anxiety. Also I called my mother in law to schedule me an appointment with the doctor who had my med records. He is like 16 hours away from us. We are going there this week to see him. I will request t tests and screening and all those blood works and everything. I'm scared at the same time because of the phrase "what if he find something bad". I've been depressed since the end of September. I could see my husband is doing his best to understand me. Until now, if there's something new I feel, I would google it and would see these horrible illness and I would feel worse more. Just the other day my husband commented on my frequent urination and I freaked out. Searched and googled it and I got all these illness (kidney failure, liver disease, ovarian cancer, diabetes, heart failure, etc.) Also, with the lightheadedness, I found something online about spinal leakage, as mentioned, brain tumor, aneurysm, heart disease, diabetes, anemia, leukemia, and any kind of cancers. If I heard anything about it (cancer) I feel horrible. I'm trying my best to avoid the topic or hearing it. Plus, a friend's daughter died of a lung cancer recently. She said one day her daughter got sick and went to the doctor. She was misdiagnosed with pneumonia and she became sicker and sicker, not to mention she is a heavy smoker and drug user) they then went to the last doctor and they found out she got lung cancer. This is what I'm afraid of. That is why I want to see another doctor. I don't know what to do anymore. HELP!
my blood pressure. I am monitoring my blood pressure not just daily but every hour.!I know I'm going too far there. Didn't want to eat pork, chicken and beef aside from fish for the reason that it may increase my cholesterol level. One day, after doing my Zumba, I felt lightheaded. Of course,. Of course, it freaked me out some more thinking I'm having aneurysm. I have my husband check my pulse and pupil if it is dilaed or not. He assured me it is normal. But, I didn't believe him otherwise. I finally told him we will see a doctor and when we did, the doctor said it was acute sinusitis. After 10 days of antibiotic, it seemed its the same.. Nothing has changed. It's the only thing I think every single day before and after going to bed. I still constantly check my BP and its normal. Then I googled about chronic dizziness and I found about the brain tumor, , MS, stroke, and all the worst illness there is. My anxiety gotten severe that I t gave me heart palpitations, gas, worsen my dizziness, and tightness in the chest. After which, I then thought I was having a heart attack. I told my husband to see another doctor because of lightheadedness is not going away. I'm beginning to have foggy vision every now and then. I havave to squint my eyes. Seen another GP and she checked my ears and diagnosed me with Eustachian tube dysfunction. I was relieved for awhe. After the check up, I actually felt better. Just tired eyes and face pressure where the sinuses are located. After 10 days of prescribed decongestant, checked myself and still feelin lightheaded and felt my ears are clogged. So here I am freaking out some more than ever and is having more and more anxiety. Also I called my mother in law to schedule me an appointment with the doctor who had my med records. He is like 16 hours away from us. We are going there this week to see him. I will request t tests and screening and all those blood works and everything. I'm scared at the same time because of the phrase "what if he find something bad". I've been depressed since the end of September. I could see my husband is doing his best to understand me. Until now, if there's something new I feel, I would google it and would see these horrible illness and I would feel worse more. Just the other day my husband commented on my frequent urination and I freaked out. Searched and googled it and I got all these illness (kidney failure, liver disease, ovarian cancer, diabetes, heart failure, etc.) Also, with the lightheadedness, I found something online about spinal leakage, as mentioned, brain tumor, aneurysm, heart disease, diabetes, anemia, leukemia, and any kind of cancers. If I heard anything about it (cancer) I feel horrible. I'm trying my best to avoid the topic or hearing it. Plus, a friend's daughter died of a lung cancer recently. She said one day her daughter got sick and went to the doctor. She was misdiagnosed with pneumonia and she became sicker and sicker, not to mention she is a heavy smoker and drug user) they then went to the last doctor and they found out she got lung cancer. This is what I'm afraid of. That is why I want to see another doctor. I don't know what to do anymore. HELP!