ben
03-31-2007, 02:44 PM
Hi guys. New to the site. I have been an anxiety/panic sufferer since summer 1998 (the same time I went away to university). Battled through, passed, but since have bungled through life, taking safe options, mapping my life to avoid my fears (which most events have) cluching botttles of water, and self loathing at the prospect of under achieving and never getting better. I think my avoidence is actually changing me as a person. I don't even no myself what I like doing any more. Since Jan 2005, have been sober following a drink dependancy that slowly worsened from the early stages of my anxiety. Alcohol was the only thing that made it any better. Was taking Citalopram (Ciipramil) for approx 3 years on-off. It did not help, but was drinking at the time. I now take no medication, apart from the placebo dosage of chlordiazapoxide(what they give to people drying out) which for some anxious reason I can't let go of. I have had some counciling, although I feel I am a bad patient, and am now quite scared of returning for any more.
My life is managable, but very simple. I have good spells where, although cautious, am fine and happy, and periods of hell, lasting up to 3 months at a time.
I am always looking for advice, and also have some of my own. I feel that all member of our elite club have fundemental features. These are mainly that we are oversensitive, over-intelectual, perceptive worriers. I bet my bottom dollar that most people suffer anxierty but perhaps dont even let it register. I think most probably think it's tiredness. They certainly don't let the fear of it's return disrupt their lives, and we all know that it is this quick halt to proceedings that keeps us free of the manifistations.
The one thing I can guarentee anybody who reads this entry is that for any bout of anxiety or panic, no matter how bad or how long, it will always get better, and will bring you to no direct harm. Please find faith in this statement, and remind yourselves when next in despair. In fact, I think it is true to say that anxiety can dissapear as fast as it came; pretty damn quick!
Peace, relax and don't be hard on yourself. :D
My life is managable, but very simple. I have good spells where, although cautious, am fine and happy, and periods of hell, lasting up to 3 months at a time.
I am always looking for advice, and also have some of my own. I feel that all member of our elite club have fundemental features. These are mainly that we are oversensitive, over-intelectual, perceptive worriers. I bet my bottom dollar that most people suffer anxierty but perhaps dont even let it register. I think most probably think it's tiredness. They certainly don't let the fear of it's return disrupt their lives, and we all know that it is this quick halt to proceedings that keeps us free of the manifistations.
The one thing I can guarentee anybody who reads this entry is that for any bout of anxiety or panic, no matter how bad or how long, it will always get better, and will bring you to no direct harm. Please find faith in this statement, and remind yourselves when next in despair. In fact, I think it is true to say that anxiety can dissapear as fast as it came; pretty damn quick!
Peace, relax and don't be hard on yourself. :D