Hi new here

[mzstormyuk]

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I wrote a welcome message saying hi and a little info on what i'm going through but see-ing as no-one even bothered to post a hi to make me feal welcome i thought I'd delete it. I run a forum and my main concern is to welcome new members and make them feal at home, Unfortunatly after 5 days or so of no welcomeing I don't really feal to welcome even here ...which as this being a support forum is a real shame.

No doubt this will get deleted by an admin.

was hopeing to make new friends through this forum NVM.

[mzstormyuk]

just wanna take a min to apologise for my outburst above, I've been having a seriously bad week, mood swing been a nightmare, constantly crying ect ect i been having a go at everyone and anxiety is at a real high at the min, had a massive panic attack last night, my boyfriend doesnt understand what i'm going through, hell after 22 years I still don't, anyway ignore my above outburst, I'm not an angry person atall really, just get really fed up with this living nighmare.

Sarah x

Being abusive at times is a part of anxiety. Don't worry about it.

[willwander]

Hi mzstromyuk,
I'm new here as well, i've also suffered for many years, I too have what i consider to be outbursts (very infrequently) followed by HUGE pangs of guilt, it can be very frustrating when you make a real effort and that effort is not always recognised, but your in good company here, having the odd outburst is pretty normal its good to get things off your chest, heres a pretty good place to do it, so if you fancy a real bitch and rant just go for it

[mzstormyuk]

lol thanks, usually it's my b/f that takes the brunt of it, pretty much daily at the mo, really had a tough few days, I havent been able 2 sleep b4 6 each day, I keep getting that yawning breathing thing and it keeps waking me up untilll i get to a deep sleep, had 4 good days last week, slept soundly then it came back, it's driving me crazy, I know that after the good days the bad days are 10 times as bad, i feal like I'm at my limit for what I can take, my b/f is trying to deal with what i'm going through but he doesnt and most the time he makes it worse (he doesnt mean to i guess) I'm waiting for the appointment with a therapist to come through, the last 3 days have been extra bad in the sense wher I just want to give up because I feal like a burden It's not fair on my b/f and especially my kids, I feal so bad for what I'm doing to them it's no life for them constantly see-ing me like this and me not being able 2 take them places coz i might freak out and i'm allways moody with them too when theyve done nothing wrong I'm a bitch and I hate myself for being like this and i often think they would be better of without me but i couldnt do that to them i hate this i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and why cant i stop bloody crying and i need to sleeeeeeeeeeeeep anyone else have sleeping problems and live in uk wanna add me to msn to chat some night feal free to add me..........i think my msn is in my profile if not pm me and i will give you my msn