Enduronman
09-24-2012, 05:00 PM
I think yer all f**ked up, and so am I..YAY!
I bailed for abit because of a new member and their post. In fact, there were (2) new members that made me want to step back for abit. It was NOT their fault, intention, purpose. It was how my mind processed what I was reading. One of them was on (5) different f**kin meds that were all a huge clusterf**k of shit that her DR thought would be helpful. She was from the UK and may still be here, IDK..I wanted to strangle her f**kin DR for her, he made her into FRANKENSTEIN himself.. That was one. The other was a young fella typin about weightlifting and bodybuilding and giving me the impression he missed the gym badly. It took my mind backwards to a time that I too could go to a gym and it isnt because my mind won't let me, its because my BODY won't let me. You've all probably seen that story so I wont type it out again. It's painful as hell and its still pissin me off and frustrating me like you wouldn't believe. It will NEVER let me go either..I can't make this one let me go, like I could with anxiety. This one is haunting, tormenting, and I wish I could kick its ass too! NOPE..
Just wanted to say f**k you to all ole AF members and newbies too..in a nice way! :)
Enduronman..
I bailed for abit because of a new member and their post. In fact, there were (2) new members that made me want to step back for abit. It was NOT their fault, intention, purpose. It was how my mind processed what I was reading. One of them was on (5) different f**kin meds that were all a huge clusterf**k of shit that her DR thought would be helpful. She was from the UK and may still be here, IDK..I wanted to strangle her f**kin DR for her, he made her into FRANKENSTEIN himself.. That was one. The other was a young fella typin about weightlifting and bodybuilding and giving me the impression he missed the gym badly. It took my mind backwards to a time that I too could go to a gym and it isnt because my mind won't let me, its because my BODY won't let me. You've all probably seen that story so I wont type it out again. It's painful as hell and its still pissin me off and frustrating me like you wouldn't believe. It will NEVER let me go either..I can't make this one let me go, like I could with anxiety. This one is haunting, tormenting, and I wish I could kick its ass too! NOPE..
Just wanted to say f**k you to all ole AF members and newbies too..in a nice way! :)
Enduronman..