cafleming1987
09-21-2012, 09:47 AM
Hi everyone,
First off I am new here. I have struggled with anxiety and depression since I was 12, but lately it has increased 10 fold. My partner and I have been together for almost 7 years, and I love him more than anything in this world. I was the main bread winner for the past 4 years while Jeff completed school. Now, the roles are reversed and he goes to work full time while I focus on finishing my master's and internship. I was completely fine being away from him while I was at work, but now that he is at work and I am at home...I feel extremely anxious. I am also an epileptic (recent diagnosis), so I am not able to drive at the moment. So, while he is at work I am completely trapped in the house.
During the week, I am a complete wreck. Dreading the alarm going off because I know he will be leaving for work. On the weekends, I am completely fine. Its obvious to me that I am having some sort of separation anxiety when I am away from him, and I know that I should be ok when he is gone. He doesn't work out of town or anything, and I realize that I probably come off as selfish when allot of spouses are deployed or working out of town on a regular basis. I have an appointment with a therapist next week, but I am going out of my mind waiting for it. I am thrilled that Jeff is being so supportive about my education, and he doesn't want me running myself ragged. I have a wonderful partner, and I realize that it would put allot of stress on him to see me like this. I've done a good job of hiding the anxiety so far, but of course that makes me feel worse trying to put on a brave face day after day. I should clarify that on the days I have my internship, there is no anxiety at all. It is when I am at home that I go out of my mind. I am hoping that someone may be able to give me some advice on how to handle this. I've considered walks, but the heat is too much on me right now. Thank you in advance for any advice.
First off I am new here. I have struggled with anxiety and depression since I was 12, but lately it has increased 10 fold. My partner and I have been together for almost 7 years, and I love him more than anything in this world. I was the main bread winner for the past 4 years while Jeff completed school. Now, the roles are reversed and he goes to work full time while I focus on finishing my master's and internship. I was completely fine being away from him while I was at work, but now that he is at work and I am at home...I feel extremely anxious. I am also an epileptic (recent diagnosis), so I am not able to drive at the moment. So, while he is at work I am completely trapped in the house.
During the week, I am a complete wreck. Dreading the alarm going off because I know he will be leaving for work. On the weekends, I am completely fine. Its obvious to me that I am having some sort of separation anxiety when I am away from him, and I know that I should be ok when he is gone. He doesn't work out of town or anything, and I realize that I probably come off as selfish when allot of spouses are deployed or working out of town on a regular basis. I have an appointment with a therapist next week, but I am going out of my mind waiting for it. I am thrilled that Jeff is being so supportive about my education, and he doesn't want me running myself ragged. I have a wonderful partner, and I realize that it would put allot of stress on him to see me like this. I've done a good job of hiding the anxiety so far, but of course that makes me feel worse trying to put on a brave face day after day. I should clarify that on the days I have my internship, there is no anxiety at all. It is when I am at home that I go out of my mind. I am hoping that someone may be able to give me some advice on how to handle this. I've considered walks, but the heat is too much on me right now. Thank you in advance for any advice.