lsapphirel
09-19-2012, 08:25 AM
Last night, my daughter was breathless and have a fever, and i of course freaked out. I quickly got all her stuffs and ready to to step in to the A&E. Of course, my husband, never fail to disappoint me.
He went and said, she's fine, is her body warm? And of course, i went a little crazy on him. i said if you want to stay, i can go alone. if this is about work, youd jump out of bed and rush there.
Now, again, he disappoint me, there is a hospital just 5 mins away from where i lived, but that aint meant for kids. another hospital is 20 mins away and of course he choose the one nearer because it was like 2am and he needs to sleep and have to go to work in the morning.
The A&E staffs said, it is better to go to the other hospital, they are specialized in kids. My anxiety was on the high when we reach the other hospital(my husband knows as i tell him that). checks done and everything, we could go home. 5 days sick leave for my girl.
Of course, my hubby disappoints me again, he said hed take morning half day off. i wanted it to be full day as i know, when i wake up in the morning, im gonna have my anxiety level high, but i'll just make do
Guess he didnt keep his words. i mean seriously, he could go to work? i needed him, he knows that. I woke up with my anxiety on 50%. I normally would have just took a walk to ease this off, but my daughter is sick, i cant go out!
I texted him and he kept saying im gonna lose my job, i have to resign, we are gonna be poor and stuffs. Of course, at this point i was all full mode on about to explode. i was crying and my mind was in so much chaos. then it strikes, my PA went to almost full blown, i was left helpless, i couldnt walk, my legs went jelly on me.
My head was spinning, i couldnt take it, i called the ambulance. I left my girl with my helper alone!(i dont ever do this when any of my child is sick) I felt so terrible, im at a point where i dont know what to do. i had nowhere to pour it out, im trapped.
Hours later, my body is having all the tension, im still feeling depressed, i have a headache, anxiety is so and so, i just needed to just vent it out. He is not a bad man, he is all about work. im just left there to deal with it all by myself.
He went and said, she's fine, is her body warm? And of course, i went a little crazy on him. i said if you want to stay, i can go alone. if this is about work, youd jump out of bed and rush there.
Now, again, he disappoint me, there is a hospital just 5 mins away from where i lived, but that aint meant for kids. another hospital is 20 mins away and of course he choose the one nearer because it was like 2am and he needs to sleep and have to go to work in the morning.
The A&E staffs said, it is better to go to the other hospital, they are specialized in kids. My anxiety was on the high when we reach the other hospital(my husband knows as i tell him that). checks done and everything, we could go home. 5 days sick leave for my girl.
Of course, my hubby disappoints me again, he said hed take morning half day off. i wanted it to be full day as i know, when i wake up in the morning, im gonna have my anxiety level high, but i'll just make do
Guess he didnt keep his words. i mean seriously, he could go to work? i needed him, he knows that. I woke up with my anxiety on 50%. I normally would have just took a walk to ease this off, but my daughter is sick, i cant go out!
I texted him and he kept saying im gonna lose my job, i have to resign, we are gonna be poor and stuffs. Of course, at this point i was all full mode on about to explode. i was crying and my mind was in so much chaos. then it strikes, my PA went to almost full blown, i was left helpless, i couldnt walk, my legs went jelly on me.
My head was spinning, i couldnt take it, i called the ambulance. I left my girl with my helper alone!(i dont ever do this when any of my child is sick) I felt so terrible, im at a point where i dont know what to do. i had nowhere to pour it out, im trapped.
Hours later, my body is having all the tension, im still feeling depressed, i have a headache, anxiety is so and so, i just needed to just vent it out. He is not a bad man, he is all about work. im just left there to deal with it all by myself.