Anyone else afraid to be home alone?

[cyncyn]

I hate being home alone, since I have a driving phobia I don't go out much. I feel so trapped and lonely, it's a long story but I don't have friends either. I do have family but they're 45 mns away and don't come over often. I do call my mom if she's home to talk or my husband if he can talk at work. It's just I'm so afraid of having the mother of all panic attacks when I'm home alone. I've had agoraphobia for 25 yrs, have had my ups and downs, lately I'm in a really bad set back. I know rationally that things will get better, it's just so damn hard right now. I feel like a failure when I go over my moms to prevent being home alone and hate myself for crying when my husband leaves for work. I do work part time and I'm anxious about going there as well. It's like I'm scared no matter what:(

[angie]

Wow everything u said describes me.....when my husband leaves I go into a panic too....I'm constantly thinking something is going to happen to me while he's gone....and when he does get a chance to call me from work ....all I do is cry:( I don't go out anywhere because I have this fear of getting dizzy and passing out-.- so im always at home....this wasn't me....I used to be so full of life and energy!! Not sure what happened!!! But if u want private message me...we can give each other support:-)

[cyncyn]

Thank you, sounds good. I used to be full of life and confident as well, my husband always asks what happened. I had to set boundaries with a neighbor who came over complaining about our HOA all the time. The first time I asked her nicely not to bother me since it stresses me out, I thought she understood. Last Thursday she came over and I reminded her that I didn't want to talk, she went off! Just yelling at me standing in my yard, I had to go inside and shut up the house. I have enough problems staying home alone I don't need the woman 2 doors down harassing me. My husband told me he fears for my safety with her around, as well as my mother. I'm already dreading tomorrow since I have to be alone again:(

[angie]

What is she complaining about??? I'm home with my 3 yr old son all day and my greatest fear is that something will happen to me and he will be left alone and scared:( there has to be something that will help us with this disorder!!

[cyncyn]

She complains about everything, landscapers, parking, everything. I chickened out staying home alone today and now I'm mentally beating myself up. I know this disorder gives us irrational thoughts, and nothing would happen to you that would leave your 3 yr old alone. What I'm trying to say is although you feel that way your motherly instincts kick in and you wouldn't let that happen. I've done CBT in the past, it helps, so does EFT. Books by Claire Weekes helped, but hard to find now, believe they're out of print. We just have to faith it will get better, I know it does I've been there just have to find my way back again:)

[lsapphirel]

i have the same issues, my PA every sunday never fails to visit me, because mondays meant hubby is off to work, and every morning, the minute my eyes open, i shower as fast as i could, get ready and off i go. i would just loiter around and stay away from my house till my hubby comes home. :( sometimes it gets really tiring.

[cyncyn]

Where do you go? I feel like a prisoner in my home. I was working on driving until this neighbor bothered me, I know my counselor will tell me I'm giving her too much power.