Hi there, introducing myself and my mystery anxiety

[StopTheMadness]

Hi all. I wanted to introduce myself and give my situation to see if anyone else can relate. I started having anxiety in 2009, and after seeing a gp and three counselors, no one knows what causes it. I am not a nervous person, i don't panic under stress, i dont have phobias, but sometimes when i am relaxing at the end of the day, it hits me out of nowhere.

After years of being confused and a little angry that every specialist i see eventually shrugs and says "i'm sorry i dont know what causes your anxiety because you are not a stressed out person", (right except for when i am chilling and out of the blue i think i am going to die) i decided to take matters into my own hands and started a journal. I track each day that i have it and i have discovered a correlation between the days per month i have panic, and specific days on my um... Lady-cycle chart. I am hoping maybe by figuring out whats happening with me, i'll be able to sort out what will help me.

So there's progress i guess. It's really spread out and diffuse on the calendar, but it's still the same days which is interesting (cycle days 4-6, 17, 18, 22, 23 every single month)

Anyway, i also have problems taking pills when i am in panic mode. Any other time i'm fine with it. But in panic mode i am terrified of taking anything. Then if i give in and decide to force myself to take a xanax, i spend the next 40 minutes panicking even more because i just swallowed a pill. Then it kicks in and i am fine. When i am refusing to take it i feel like i am insane for being scared of something that will only help me.

Nice to meet yall! Please tell me i'm not crazy lol

[Enduronman]

Welcome!

I'm more inclined to think your hormones are to blame for this..When is the last time that you visited a Dr and have you ever had a full hormone screen performed?..

E-Man.

[StopTheMadness]

Hi thanks for the reply :)

I havent been to a dr for anxiety in 2 years. I had been prescribed buspar and it worked at first then it quit working after a few months and then i started havin palpitations that knocked the wind out of me. I went and had a 12 lead done. It showed abnormal T waves. Also, my usually perfect BP was 198/90 which is obscene for a young healthy active girl like me so into the trash buspar went.

A few wks later, i went see my gp and he gave me paxil and xanax prn. Within two days of taking paxil my anxiety shot thru the roof. I told his office and they said "oh yeah with paxil it gets worse before it gets better". Into the trash paxil went.

The only thing that didnt go into the trash was the xanax. And it's not going to be my savior because A) it's not an everyday medicine and i dont want to overdo and become dependent. And B) when i am panicked i am actually scared of taking it. So i will inevitably suffer with or without the xanax even if it's for a short while between the start of panic and the onset of the action of xanax.

I dont want to take meds but in a perfect world there would exist a med that doesnt cause weight gain or lose efficacy.

To answer ur question about blood work. I have had my thyroid and testosterone levels checked but that was yrs ago before the anxiety. I do believe it's time to retest. My insurance doesnt kick in til dec but i may have to try to do it before then.

But thanks for validating the probability that it could be hormonal!! A lot of professionals think i'm making this up but the charting is saying otherwise. If i could find a good doc to just figure it out and treat the underlying cause i would be cured and finally free from this crap :-/ im tired of people brushing me off like "oh thats just a girl thing yall are always high strung". Im sorry no im not i am a fricking paramedic for crying out loud if i can be calm at my job i dont think watching tv at night is a good reason for me to just freak out for nothing!!!

[StopTheMadness]

I posted u a reply. Please tell me u got it? I dont see it. Hmm