i feel like there's someone inside my head?

[Shallowbeliever]

i don't know if this is the right place to post this, and i'm sorry if i'm on the wrong place.
i've been feeling a little down since last year, and started taking anti depressants since last september, but i stoped them when like 5 months ago because i felt like they wouldn't even work anymore..
and now everthing's worse.
i've been feeling like there's someone inside my room, laughing at me. and now i feel like there's someone inside my head, forcing me to be unhappy. like it's taking my life away from me. this voice also makes me laugh at people's disgrace and then feel so guilty about it that i need to cut myself.
now all i do is sleep and sleep. i don't even want to go out anymore because i know i'm not going to enjoy it, even if i want to. it's like when i'm happy, this little person inside my head is all like 'no, let's stop it' and i'm all numb again -- i don't feel a thing, and then i get frustrated with myself because of that and cry and cut.
what should i do? i've already taken all kinds of pills and they never work. i feel hopeless.

[Buttercup]

You've mentioned meds but not mentioned therapy. Pills should go along with some kind of talking therapy- without it I feel there is little point in taking the meds as they do not get to the root of the problem, they don't educate you on depression and/or anxiety and they don't teach you coping mechanisms.

Also you say you have taken all kinds of pills since last September. What have you tried and what was the dose? It can take several weeks for any effect to be felt when taking anti-d's and even then the dose may need to be upped.

I know you feel hopeless but there is hope if you attend therapy and stick with your meds. It's hard work getting better but it's worth it.