Nicholem22
09-04-2012, 07:28 PM
Ok. First of all my name is Nichole. I am 30 years old with a wonderful husband, two kids and a wonderful job as a pediatric oncology nurse. I have always been a "worry wart" growing up. But about 4 years ago something happened that just made my anxiety more than just being a "worry wart". About 4 years ago I went to the ER for shortness of breath. They did a chest CT and noticed I had a pneumomediastinum. Basically one of my lungs was leaking air into the middle of my chest. Fortinitially, it wasn't serious and was somethig that would resolve on its own. Weelllll 4 years later I still feel like I can't breath. I've had a repeat CT scan and everything was normal. I've had PFT's, stress test and an echo. Everything is normal. I obviously feel better than that day 4 years ago. But EVERY single day I still feel this massive pressure in my chest causing me to take deep breaths all day. Feels like I can't take a good satisfying breath. Does that make sense?? It's so scary. -- I've seen a therapist about a year ago. I see her every couple of months or so. She has made me feel better. She thinks I'm having PTSD from it. So I do feel better but still not normal. It has caused such an increase in my anxiety. Lately I'm SOO afraid to die. I'm basically a hypochondriac. I think everything will kill me or I will die young and leave my kids behind! It sucks! I have also been having these weird headaches. Well, not sure of its headaches or not. I have this weird sensation behind my eyes that make my head hurt. Like my eye sockets hurt. It makes me kinda dizzy when I look from object to object and makes my eyes hurt. I don't need glasses and I had a head CT that was normal. I just don't know what's causing this. I am not depressed but all of this makes me sad sometimes. I don't really ever have panic attacks, thankfully. I am just ALWAYS on edge and worrying about something. Had anyone felt this way? If so how did you get through it. I'm Juat ready to feel NORMAL!!!