pitchblackheart
09-03-2012, 05:55 AM
Hi Everyone.
I hope everyone is feeling okay. I'm new to this, and indeed any kind of forum.
I'm not looking for answers, as I know we are all different, but having someone or something to relate to might help.
I will tell my story (it may be a bit of a long way so I do apologise!)
I am a 25 year old female. Fairly healthy, a little over weight, don't smoke or drink and don't, or have ever had any health issues.
It all started on Christmas Eve 2011. I was watching TV and suddenly got a stabbing pain in the left side of my ribs. I started to feel really hot and weak and paniced and almost collapsed. For a whole week after I felt completely drained, could move, work or anything.
In a matter of weeks I didn't want to leave the house, I was scared to be alone, hated shops and restaurants and basically felt like I was living on edge.
Straight after this I had a massive panic attack. My partner called an ambulance as he was really worried about me. They did all the tests you'd expect, ECG, blood etc and said everything was fine I had had a panic attack.
From that day on I have felt awful. My symptoms kicked in straight after. Mainly chest pain to start. A constant tight chest, short sharp stabbing pains in my neck and shoulder blades. Constantly feeling sick and extremely dizzy.
I spoke to my Dr and he said the chest pains were a result of costocondrontis and as a result of this it was causing anxiety. I obviously didn't want to accept this. I have been to the doctors so many times, blood test after blood test and still nothing. I was prescribed acid reflux tablets (which I still take as they thought this was the cause).
In March I had a few weeks of feeling okay and finally thought I was rid of it. Then all of a sudden it came back with vengeance, this time even worse and it's never gone away.
I have constant left shoulder pain, really dull often sharp. Really deep pain in my left forearm and upper arm. Dull, often prickly pain the middle of my chest. I constantly feel like my left breast is bring pinched and twisted. It takes my breath away and it makes me feel so sick! The nausea is awful. I get a pain, I feel sick, I don't eat for 8 hours, then get stomach cramps because I'm so hungry. I need to wee all the time and I either have constipation or diahrea!
I had another ambulance 6 weeks ago as I feel so ill, couldn't breath, choking feeling, racing heart, palps, all of the above problems as well. They again did all the heart tests, everything okay!!
This really is taking over my life. I literally cannot be on my own. I work late to avoid going home to an empty house until my partner finishes work. I hate it when he goes into another room and I carry my phone everywhere in the house.
Everyday I wake up and feel okay, and within minutes I get a pain and think that's it, today's the day, it's all over. I constantly tell myself it's all in my head. But it just doesn't work.
Most of the time I don't actually feel anxious, I just get the physical symptoms out of the blue and then become anxious.
It's stopped me doing everything I enjoy. I'm terrified of doing anything that increases my heart rate (does anyone else get that)? I'm scared of sex, which I love, incase something happens. I swam everyday which I've now stopped for the same reasons. Just doing a 5 minute walk makes me feel anxious. I get short of breath and pain everywhere and have to stop.
I cry all the time I just don't know what to do anymore. I think I'm driving my partner nuts. He loves me so much and is do supportive but I think it's taking it's toll on him too.
My last visit to the Drs was a fee weeks ago, she said everything was okay as always and suggested some online Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. This actually made me worse. She also suggested counselling.
Almost 3 years ago I lost my dad to a huge heart attack. He was 50. Totally out of the blue. Although he had had operations all his life (40 in total) on a knee injury and had had many blood clots, which ultimately causes his heart attack.
I am absolutely convinced this is what is wrong with me. I believe I'm going to have a heart attack at any minute. I get the same symptoms as he dud. Although from his first symptom to passing away it was 2 days. I try to convince myself that after 9 months that if I had a serious heart condition something would gave happened by now, right??
I miss my dad so much and just don't want to leave my mum on her own. I try to convince the Drs this is what's wrong with me, but they won't listen. Everyday a new symptom appears and I panic.
I just want to know if anyone can relate to my story? And do people think the doctors could have missed something?
Thank you so much for listening
Michelle
I hope everyone is feeling okay. I'm new to this, and indeed any kind of forum.
I'm not looking for answers, as I know we are all different, but having someone or something to relate to might help.
I will tell my story (it may be a bit of a long way so I do apologise!)
I am a 25 year old female. Fairly healthy, a little over weight, don't smoke or drink and don't, or have ever had any health issues.
It all started on Christmas Eve 2011. I was watching TV and suddenly got a stabbing pain in the left side of my ribs. I started to feel really hot and weak and paniced and almost collapsed. For a whole week after I felt completely drained, could move, work or anything.
In a matter of weeks I didn't want to leave the house, I was scared to be alone, hated shops and restaurants and basically felt like I was living on edge.
Straight after this I had a massive panic attack. My partner called an ambulance as he was really worried about me. They did all the tests you'd expect, ECG, blood etc and said everything was fine I had had a panic attack.
From that day on I have felt awful. My symptoms kicked in straight after. Mainly chest pain to start. A constant tight chest, short sharp stabbing pains in my neck and shoulder blades. Constantly feeling sick and extremely dizzy.
I spoke to my Dr and he said the chest pains were a result of costocondrontis and as a result of this it was causing anxiety. I obviously didn't want to accept this. I have been to the doctors so many times, blood test after blood test and still nothing. I was prescribed acid reflux tablets (which I still take as they thought this was the cause).
In March I had a few weeks of feeling okay and finally thought I was rid of it. Then all of a sudden it came back with vengeance, this time even worse and it's never gone away.
I have constant left shoulder pain, really dull often sharp. Really deep pain in my left forearm and upper arm. Dull, often prickly pain the middle of my chest. I constantly feel like my left breast is bring pinched and twisted. It takes my breath away and it makes me feel so sick! The nausea is awful. I get a pain, I feel sick, I don't eat for 8 hours, then get stomach cramps because I'm so hungry. I need to wee all the time and I either have constipation or diahrea!
I had another ambulance 6 weeks ago as I feel so ill, couldn't breath, choking feeling, racing heart, palps, all of the above problems as well. They again did all the heart tests, everything okay!!
This really is taking over my life. I literally cannot be on my own. I work late to avoid going home to an empty house until my partner finishes work. I hate it when he goes into another room and I carry my phone everywhere in the house.
Everyday I wake up and feel okay, and within minutes I get a pain and think that's it, today's the day, it's all over. I constantly tell myself it's all in my head. But it just doesn't work.
Most of the time I don't actually feel anxious, I just get the physical symptoms out of the blue and then become anxious.
It's stopped me doing everything I enjoy. I'm terrified of doing anything that increases my heart rate (does anyone else get that)? I'm scared of sex, which I love, incase something happens. I swam everyday which I've now stopped for the same reasons. Just doing a 5 minute walk makes me feel anxious. I get short of breath and pain everywhere and have to stop.
I cry all the time I just don't know what to do anymore. I think I'm driving my partner nuts. He loves me so much and is do supportive but I think it's taking it's toll on him too.
My last visit to the Drs was a fee weeks ago, she said everything was okay as always and suggested some online Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. This actually made me worse. She also suggested counselling.
Almost 3 years ago I lost my dad to a huge heart attack. He was 50. Totally out of the blue. Although he had had operations all his life (40 in total) on a knee injury and had had many blood clots, which ultimately causes his heart attack.
I am absolutely convinced this is what is wrong with me. I believe I'm going to have a heart attack at any minute. I get the same symptoms as he dud. Although from his first symptom to passing away it was 2 days. I try to convince myself that after 9 months that if I had a serious heart condition something would gave happened by now, right??
I miss my dad so much and just don't want to leave my mum on her own. I try to convince the Drs this is what's wrong with me, but they won't listen. Everyday a new symptom appears and I panic.
I just want to know if anyone can relate to my story? And do people think the doctors could have missed something?
Thank you so much for listening
Michelle