camilla91
08-25-2012, 02:21 PM
I'll start with the bad and end with the good.
If anyone saw my post yesterday I kicked my partner out.
This morning he came round and we had another argument. Which resulted in my two year old son chasing him down the street with no shoes on. My poor baby.
Anger got the best of me and I posted this on my facebook -
To everyone who knows (deleted name)-
Just to let you all know what a scumbag this man is. Hasn't paid a penny towards his 2 year old son since forever, I pay all the fucking bills while he put a 'few quid' here and there. Yesterday he told his innocent 2 year old little boy he was going to buy him a turtle. A turtle that only costs 15 pound my I add. He got my son so exicited. For an hour he told my son about this turtle. Then tells me he can't afford it. 15 minutes later he went to town and spent 35 quid on cds then started to tell my dad how the rest of his money is for beer. My son looked straight at me and asked where his turtle was. Has anyone ever had to look a 2 year old in the eye to say 'sorry baby your daddys spent the money for it?' I sincerly hope not. He's had 150 quid today and bought his son some 10p sweets while telling us how drunk he was last night. Disgusting.
Oh yes I wrote an essay. Also sent him an abusive msg. Also posted the msg on his wall for his friends to see.
Pure anger drove me.. That's pretty rare..
After this 'act' I had a huge public full blown argument with his sister who's only defence was 'well he bought u a cooker a while back and the baby a toy'. That fuelled me more, where I threatened to say something pretty hideous about her to her mother.. (Unbelieveably ashamed about that one)
I feel pretty guilty. And so ashamed!! Acting like a child!
I haven't removed the post. Because I don't want people to think I backed down (oh god I sound like I'm in school!!)
Grrr mad at myself! Really pissed off.
Good note. No depersonalisation all day. Had something else to focus on. Would much rather have something good to focus on but its a start. Pfffffffffffffffft. Give me a good bloody day tomorrow! Strange how a day that should have been full of anxiety because of the stress wasn't? Eeeeeeee well that me unloaded, feel like I've just been in confession booth.. Gunna post this, leave it 5 mins then delete because I'm already regretting writing it? What the hell.
If anyone saw my post yesterday I kicked my partner out.
This morning he came round and we had another argument. Which resulted in my two year old son chasing him down the street with no shoes on. My poor baby.
Anger got the best of me and I posted this on my facebook -
To everyone who knows (deleted name)-
Just to let you all know what a scumbag this man is. Hasn't paid a penny towards his 2 year old son since forever, I pay all the fucking bills while he put a 'few quid' here and there. Yesterday he told his innocent 2 year old little boy he was going to buy him a turtle. A turtle that only costs 15 pound my I add. He got my son so exicited. For an hour he told my son about this turtle. Then tells me he can't afford it. 15 minutes later he went to town and spent 35 quid on cds then started to tell my dad how the rest of his money is for beer. My son looked straight at me and asked where his turtle was. Has anyone ever had to look a 2 year old in the eye to say 'sorry baby your daddys spent the money for it?' I sincerly hope not. He's had 150 quid today and bought his son some 10p sweets while telling us how drunk he was last night. Disgusting.
Oh yes I wrote an essay. Also sent him an abusive msg. Also posted the msg on his wall for his friends to see.
Pure anger drove me.. That's pretty rare..
After this 'act' I had a huge public full blown argument with his sister who's only defence was 'well he bought u a cooker a while back and the baby a toy'. That fuelled me more, where I threatened to say something pretty hideous about her to her mother.. (Unbelieveably ashamed about that one)
I feel pretty guilty. And so ashamed!! Acting like a child!
I haven't removed the post. Because I don't want people to think I backed down (oh god I sound like I'm in school!!)
Grrr mad at myself! Really pissed off.
Good note. No depersonalisation all day. Had something else to focus on. Would much rather have something good to focus on but its a start. Pfffffffffffffffft. Give me a good bloody day tomorrow! Strange how a day that should have been full of anxiety because of the stress wasn't? Eeeeeeee well that me unloaded, feel like I've just been in confession booth.. Gunna post this, leave it 5 mins then delete because I'm already regretting writing it? What the hell.