Enduronman
08-22-2012, 02:54 PM
Good evening.
Yes, it is I again! Mr. WTF just happened? As you may have already read many times before, I have been everywhere that many of you are now and also to places that you do not wish to go also. Anxiety pretty much ruled my entire life and I lived an entire life in anxiety mode or in my case "Attack Mode". My mind, my thoughts, my internal organs were all (1) finely tuned attacking machine. Only problem, no one to attack. My whole existence, life, person, being, was living in (Chronic Stress State). You know these "panic attacks" you all speak of? My body was in constant "Protect the Vital Organs Mode" exactly the same as what a gladiator, a soldier, an MMA fighter, or anyone you can think of that would be or feel like they're under some sort of threat. Next problem, there was NO threat, there is NO threat..there never was A threat to begin with...I no longer live in that "State of Mind and Body"..I'm out.
Now, where did this condition or disorder eventually lead me? To disease..The first was called (trigeminal neuralgia). There are only 150,000 cases of this in my entire country. 25% of those confirmed cases were male. A rare disease in my case. It hurt like hell. It felt like someone had placed a clothing iron, on high, on the side of my head..and I could not remove it. Constant burning sensation, and no you could not see it, the Dr. could not see it..no one could see it. Just like anxiety..Invisible, but pain like I had never felt. It did not pass for 30 days, and no medications would work to do anything for it either.
The next disease is called (rheumatoid arthritis). There are 3 million cases of this in my country, out of 300 million people. Again, 25% of these cases are male. This one was unreal. I couldnt move my own hands. I couldnt feed myself as the food would flip off the fork from tremors. I'd never had tremors before. It felt like I was hit by a truck, thrown off of a 3 story building, something was shocking me like an electrical cord that someone would plug in for a few seconds, and then pull out of the wall socket. At times, it was like an invisible force would strike a knee, a wrist, my hand, an ankle..with the force of a baseball bat, or a sledgehammer. Again,...invisible just like anxiety, just like the TN mentioned above. Pain like I have never known..This one would not let go for over 70 days, and NO pain medications would touch it either..
So, If you're wondering where (anxiety, fear, phobias, disorders, conditions) will eventually lead you? This is where you will end up if your conditions are ignored, avoided, and you allow "it" to control you..
This was my final battles with anxiety and his forces..These battles left me disabled but I am recovering. This is the "Hell on Earth" that you will experience, feel, sense, and not understand. I did understand, I do understand...Read this until YOU understand..
Enduron Man.
Yes, it is I again! Mr. WTF just happened? As you may have already read many times before, I have been everywhere that many of you are now and also to places that you do not wish to go also. Anxiety pretty much ruled my entire life and I lived an entire life in anxiety mode or in my case "Attack Mode". My mind, my thoughts, my internal organs were all (1) finely tuned attacking machine. Only problem, no one to attack. My whole existence, life, person, being, was living in (Chronic Stress State). You know these "panic attacks" you all speak of? My body was in constant "Protect the Vital Organs Mode" exactly the same as what a gladiator, a soldier, an MMA fighter, or anyone you can think of that would be or feel like they're under some sort of threat. Next problem, there was NO threat, there is NO threat..there never was A threat to begin with...I no longer live in that "State of Mind and Body"..I'm out.
Now, where did this condition or disorder eventually lead me? To disease..The first was called (trigeminal neuralgia). There are only 150,000 cases of this in my entire country. 25% of those confirmed cases were male. A rare disease in my case. It hurt like hell. It felt like someone had placed a clothing iron, on high, on the side of my head..and I could not remove it. Constant burning sensation, and no you could not see it, the Dr. could not see it..no one could see it. Just like anxiety..Invisible, but pain like I had never felt. It did not pass for 30 days, and no medications would work to do anything for it either.
The next disease is called (rheumatoid arthritis). There are 3 million cases of this in my country, out of 300 million people. Again, 25% of these cases are male. This one was unreal. I couldnt move my own hands. I couldnt feed myself as the food would flip off the fork from tremors. I'd never had tremors before. It felt like I was hit by a truck, thrown off of a 3 story building, something was shocking me like an electrical cord that someone would plug in for a few seconds, and then pull out of the wall socket. At times, it was like an invisible force would strike a knee, a wrist, my hand, an ankle..with the force of a baseball bat, or a sledgehammer. Again,...invisible just like anxiety, just like the TN mentioned above. Pain like I have never known..This one would not let go for over 70 days, and NO pain medications would touch it either..
So, If you're wondering where (anxiety, fear, phobias, disorders, conditions) will eventually lead you? This is where you will end up if your conditions are ignored, avoided, and you allow "it" to control you..
This was my final battles with anxiety and his forces..These battles left me disabled but I am recovering. This is the "Hell on Earth" that you will experience, feel, sense, and not understand. I did understand, I do understand...Read this until YOU understand..
Enduron Man.