cant deal with it anymore

[Pearlchick28]

Hi my name is echo. I have had anxiety for the past 20 years give or take a year it started out with panic attacks from a former ex boyfriend beating me then one day due to a stressful month I think I had a nervous break down and never git the right help for it. I did try David Lawrence a mental health place to adults and children in Naples FL but that didn't help they just made it worse so I tried dealing with it. Until after I had my daughter I was put on prozac 10mg it helped a lot but was UN able to pay for it after a year so stopped taking it now I try and deal with it but am finding it hard to more and more each day. My symptoms are.... I sweat throw up have diarrhea can't breath chest pain blurry vision my hole body feels hot its like I'm losing my mind. I freak out over stupid stuff. For example Saturday night I didn't sleep at all and Sunday I only sleep for to hours in the morning but when I came home from work I wasn't tired so I was worried there was something wrong with me so I started freaking thinking that if I did fall asleep I was going to die and if I didn't I was. I don't understand y I do this to myself. Most of the time when I don't have an attack I think something is wrong. I DONT KNOW WHAT NORMAL IS ANYMORE.

[jhunter89]

Hi echo, that's a lovely name :) welcome hope you find some comfort here.

[dazzadoo123]

Hi there seems like your going threw a very bad episode of anxiety right now,
I fully understand I've had this crap on of 20 years :-( nightmare,
My last flare up has been since dec 2011
I get every symptom under the sun it's awefull .
Just wanted to say your not alone I feel your pain
Feel free to message me anytime
The storm will pass in time ,,,,,,
Regards
Dazza,

[Pearlchick28]

Thank you. It just sucks. I find some stuff that helps like walks cleaning texting but other times it wont help me and I have to try and ride it out. I can't deal with it by myself and noone understands when I try to explain it. If they had it they would know the feeling it is so awful . I don't wish this on my worst enemy. I just wish i was normal and could do day to day things. I can't ride in cars for a long period of time some times not at all I get attacks I can't do anything that makes me feel funny I have to be in control of my body at all times. Example : One time at the park I went on this spinning toy and I got dizzy and I had an attack because it made me feel weird. I don't take any meds some times tyneol or motrin & advil nothing more unless a doctor gives it to me like antibiotics no pain meds or any thing. I freak out. Some times I think people try and drug my drinks and food I don't know why I get werid thoughts in my head and I believe what NY brain is telling me even though its not true.

[Pearlchick28]

Thank you. I just can't understand y this happened to me no that's not true I know y but why not anyone else in my family. My grandma had anxiety and she died from it she went crazy and went to the hospital one night they gave her crazy pills and send her home and she lite a cigarette and fell asleep and the house brunt down

[Pearlchick28]

I feel like I'm going to end up like her go CRAZY from it.

[roo]

I know how you feel. It is really hard to explain to ppl who don't suffer from anxiety and depression exactly what we go through