scarlett010
08-15-2012, 10:52 AM
Hello. I have been searching for an online forum for a while that doesn't suggest that anxiety = schizophrenia, cancer or death. Yes, I need to quit my Googling habit. I have suffered from anxiety for years, but the past couple of months it has gotten a lot worse. I suddenly started getting very bad derealisation/depersonalisaton, and decided straight away to visit a therapist. However, I am still waiting for treatment to begin. Since then, I have started getting intrusive thoughts about "What if I'm not really here? Is life real? How is all this even possible?" On the whole, I am good at distracting myself but sometimes things get a bit much and I feel like I am going crazy. My mind is being a cruel mistress at the moment. I just wanted to talk somewhere where people understand anxiety as a lot of my friends and family don't. Plus, if I tell them I don't feel 'real', they eye me with a crazy look like I am going to kill myself or something (which I wouldn't ever do!). I just want to find a home, as I said, during this weird period of my life!