Hello from Oz

[Pantherschik]

*waves*

HI

So thought I would introduce myself .... I'm Pantherschik or PC for short (lol) .... I live in sunny Brisbane Australia ..... Not sure if anyone else on here is from Oz ....

I was diagnosed with Depression / Anxiety 2 days ago .... I only just started on my medication, so it hasn't really kicked in yet ...

Episodes that have happened over the last two weeks in my relationship has caused the symptons to resurface again. I have had them for over a year now and I had gone to a doctor previously but they told me that I just needed to change my lifestyle and eat healthy , excercise etc. Well I did that, but nothing seemed to work ...
I finally went to another doctor had a decent long chat and she came up with the diagnosis .. I am a single mother and have been for near on 5 years now (my son is 10) , it hasn't been smooth sailing, living in a city where I didn't know anyone, no family , no friends .... I has been a hard hard road, my son hasn't exactly been an angel either ....

I haven't told many people as yet , I am a little embarressed by it to be honest. I know of a few people who unfortunately think that it's an attention seeing thing, which I find rather digusting personally , but hey that's the kind of people whom I used to be friends with. I guess it's really up to me who I tell though and who I don't, as it's very personal to me.... Once I am comfortable with it myself I guess, I will then slowly tell people ... the people whom I have told though have been very very supportive and I love them alot for that. They are my best friends and they have been through this before , so they understand ...

It's nice to know, that there are people out there going through the same thing as you, where you can bounce things off and ask questions etc. ...

:)

[alankay]

Howde PC. Yep most folks don't get what a pain anxiety is unless they are feeling it themselves. Alankay.

[Enduronman]

Welcome,

Some of us have been through all of that, plus anything else that ones mind could muster up too!!..

nice to have a new member..

Enduronman.

[Pantherschik]

Thanks for the welcome ...

I had a bit of an episode before in the car, my paranoia / anxiety came into play. It was over something so minor, yet I just can't control it.

The BF has in his car an envelope with his name on it, with the 19th of August as the date and the time 930 - 500pm. My brain starting working in overdrive.
Where is he going? Who is he going with? That means he won't be home all day! I won't be able to see him? Why won't he tell me? Why has he kept it in his car.. etc etc.

I've only just started on my medication, so things are still in its early stages. But this is what my brain does to me, and I've pushed so many people away in my life because of it.

Here in Oz there is a word we use call "emo" .... when someone is having an "emo session" it is then being sad or withdrawn from the rest of the world.
I was and still am often ridiculed as having an emo moment, and even though most people can snap out of it, I never can , being now diagnosed with depression / anxiety I know the reason why ... however I am too scared to say anything, but if someone jumps up and says that I am having an emo moment, I have my reasons now ..

ANYWAY ... so I know that there is some perfectly logical explanation to this next sunday adventure , but try telling my brain that .........

p.s I haven't told my BF yet about my diagnosis .... I'm trying to find the right way to do it ...