bhughes
08-04-2012, 09:12 PM
Hello everybody!
I'm not even going to bother modifying this post to be more interesting because I'm pretty sure every post is the exact same lol. "is this normal", "what's going on", "any tips" etc are probably commonly used phrases. I'm just looking for someone that can relate a little. I was at school far away from home in a small town and developed GAD towards the end, have had it since March of this year. Meditate daily, taking vit B complex and on 10 mg Cipralex till middle of september. Overall I feel a massive decrease in overall anxiety. Hardly ever worry about being sick or anything major.
What's upsetting me now is just that the main symptom I've had since this developed is an almost paralyzed feeling in my thought process. I will do my best to explain this.
- regular thought, not anxious
- realizing im not paying attention to the thought i will quickly analyze every single feeling i get and the thought itself
- this results in the thought feeling wrong, i feel unlike myself
- On top, just analyze every single feeling I get.
- feel like i can't think, almost at all. and i just want to BE.
It's frustrating but tolerable. I want to love my life. I want to feel like I can think freely without second guessing.
It's odd because I don't have ANY anxiety about life anymore. It's all about my thoughts and feelings. Lol, such a crazy disorder!
Love and thanks for the help.
I'm not even going to bother modifying this post to be more interesting because I'm pretty sure every post is the exact same lol. "is this normal", "what's going on", "any tips" etc are probably commonly used phrases. I'm just looking for someone that can relate a little. I was at school far away from home in a small town and developed GAD towards the end, have had it since March of this year. Meditate daily, taking vit B complex and on 10 mg Cipralex till middle of september. Overall I feel a massive decrease in overall anxiety. Hardly ever worry about being sick or anything major.
What's upsetting me now is just that the main symptom I've had since this developed is an almost paralyzed feeling in my thought process. I will do my best to explain this.
- regular thought, not anxious
- realizing im not paying attention to the thought i will quickly analyze every single feeling i get and the thought itself
- this results in the thought feeling wrong, i feel unlike myself
- On top, just analyze every single feeling I get.
- feel like i can't think, almost at all. and i just want to BE.
It's frustrating but tolerable. I want to love my life. I want to feel like I can think freely without second guessing.
It's odd because I don't have ANY anxiety about life anymore. It's all about my thoughts and feelings. Lol, such a crazy disorder!
Love and thanks for the help.