too much to handle

[mscinderella]

I tried to go to my training class today. I went there but when i seen how many people were there i couldnt stay. I sat in the lobby for a while. I made up and excuse to leave and i left. I was so mad at myself. I started to shake and feel hot. My hear was racing. My thoughts were all over the place. I wish i could have stayed. Tomorrow i plan on going there just to hang around to try and get use to office and the people. There is another training class on thursday and i really want to try to attend. It was too much to handle too fast today. I just could deal. I hope i do better.