Need help

[dissdam0118]

Everyone including my therapist is urgeing me to go onto medication since I can barely function anymore. My problem with it is Ive tried paxil before when I was 13 and it made me feel empty like I had nothing to say. My friends around me would be joking around and I had zero to add even though I am usually silly myself. I remember wondering to myself when people around me are joking why I didnt have a word to say. Like it took my personality and I was a robot with no emotion. Does this normally happen? Is this what I have to look forward to? Either not be able to function or function in the world without feelings?

[Buttercup]

There are lots of different medications that have varying side effects. As forwells said, ometimes you have to try a few before you find one that suits you. I found that citalopram was very helpful for my depression and after a few weeks of taking it and getting over the initial side effects I was able to start functioning again like a normal human being and put in the effort to get well again. It also helped somewhat with my anxiety although I feel that talking therapies were the most beneficial for me in regards to panic. Once you get the right treatment that works for you you will be able to move on and see a brighter future.