GM1987
02-17-2007, 10:19 PM
Hello all,
I don't really know where this anxiety came from, but it's been bothering me for about a month and a half now.
Basically, on Jan. 3 I was starting my new quarter at the University I'm attending. A couple of my classmates and I decided to go to a diner where I had contact with what appeared to be a hitchhiker. All we did was shake each others' hand.
Randomly, after a couple of hours, I got the spontaneous idea that this man stuck a needle into my hand so he could contaminate me with the HIV virus. As absurd as it may sound, I was VERY confident that the event had taken place (although I didn't remember it actually happening) and that I was infected with the HIV virus (although numerous people told me chances were very low, nearly slim 0.3%, assuming the "needle" was contaminated with HIV). After 42 or so days (Feb. 13), I decided to go get an HIV test to put my worries to the side. At the University, they told me that my HIV result would come back in a week so as recommended, I went to a nearby clinic to take a 20 minute test. Negative.
Now, spontaneously, I have some feeling that I was stuck by a needle when I entered the clinic. I remember standing in line and looking through the glass to see if a needle was attached to the door handle and couldn't really see anything that suggested a sharp object. Note that I do not remember being stuck with anything but I'm thinking that this is denial, as investigation of the door handle must have derived from an actual puncture. A clear plastic tape had been wrapped around the door handle when I had my initial "contact." On the day that this may have happened, I thought that someone had fixated the needle and hence, the presence of the clear plastic tape. I decided to go back after four days (Feb. 16) and still saw the clear plastic tape wrapped around the door handle. True, likely it would have been noticed by clinic staff or other members of the public who also use the doors. But what if no one had reported it? I was there at about 2:30PM so I'm guessing the clinic must have been open for about 6 hours...
This issue has been bothering me and I don't know what the heck is going on with me and if I should believe the ID which is apparently taking control of my EGO while the SUPEREGO is put to shame.
Funny...but I'm a Psychology student and have never had any problems like this. I think I'm the one that has gone crazy.
What do you all think?
I don't really know where this anxiety came from, but it's been bothering me for about a month and a half now.
Basically, on Jan. 3 I was starting my new quarter at the University I'm attending. A couple of my classmates and I decided to go to a diner where I had contact with what appeared to be a hitchhiker. All we did was shake each others' hand.
Randomly, after a couple of hours, I got the spontaneous idea that this man stuck a needle into my hand so he could contaminate me with the HIV virus. As absurd as it may sound, I was VERY confident that the event had taken place (although I didn't remember it actually happening) and that I was infected with the HIV virus (although numerous people told me chances were very low, nearly slim 0.3%, assuming the "needle" was contaminated with HIV). After 42 or so days (Feb. 13), I decided to go get an HIV test to put my worries to the side. At the University, they told me that my HIV result would come back in a week so as recommended, I went to a nearby clinic to take a 20 minute test. Negative.
Now, spontaneously, I have some feeling that I was stuck by a needle when I entered the clinic. I remember standing in line and looking through the glass to see if a needle was attached to the door handle and couldn't really see anything that suggested a sharp object. Note that I do not remember being stuck with anything but I'm thinking that this is denial, as investigation of the door handle must have derived from an actual puncture. A clear plastic tape had been wrapped around the door handle when I had my initial "contact." On the day that this may have happened, I thought that someone had fixated the needle and hence, the presence of the clear plastic tape. I decided to go back after four days (Feb. 16) and still saw the clear plastic tape wrapped around the door handle. True, likely it would have been noticed by clinic staff or other members of the public who also use the doors. But what if no one had reported it? I was there at about 2:30PM so I'm guessing the clinic must have been open for about 6 hours...
This issue has been bothering me and I don't know what the heck is going on with me and if I should believe the ID which is apparently taking control of my EGO while the SUPEREGO is put to shame.
Funny...but I'm a Psychology student and have never had any problems like this. I think I'm the one that has gone crazy.
What do you all think?