chugalug
07-12-2012, 09:40 PM
Hello! I'm new to the forum and I'm a student and I'm having my summer break at the moment :-) I was recently (a month and a half ago) diagnosed with anxiety. I'm currently seeing a psychiatrist and I'm on low dosage of valdoxan and seroquel. I am to take Xanax when necessary. So every now and then before I go out with my friends I will pop a xanax to make me calm. My psychiatrist never actually told me what kind of anxiety I had but I believe I do have generalized anxiety disorder.
After approx 2 weeks I felt like I was kind of back to my normal self, I was able to go out with my friends and have a good time but I had to take xanax(0.5mg) before I went out.
To cut the long story short , I'm in an organizing committee for a camp and we had to stay over for a few days to prepare for the it. The camp was in the evening and I took a xanax before I went. I was suppose to take my meds every night but I skipped that night. I felt completely alright the entire night and I was actually enjoying myself because I knew most of the people there. We slept at about 7am lol and woke up and 9am. I still felt ok. The next day more people arrived(I didn't really know them). In the mid afternoon I felt a little weird and strange but I ignored it. After that we to the open field to play games. I started to perspire profusely and none of the people there were actually perspiring! A few of them asked me why I was perspiring so much I didn't know what to answer so I said the weather was hot and humid. I felt like I was losing focus but I forced myself to continue to play the games and pretending I was having a good time(pretending to smile) but I wasn't! The time was passing so slow and I felt like everyone was watching me. (Has any one heard of the fight-or-flight response?) I felt embarrassed and really conscious of my actions. Till then, I know I couldn't do it anymore, I walked back to one of the rooms and just bawled my eyes out. My close friends were there but I didn't tell them about my anxiety. I just told them I had urgent matter to settle and had to go home. They were really helpful and supportive and even wanted to send me home.
Has anyone ever encountered a similar situation before? I kind of fear how people in my school will see me from that day onwards (besides my group of friends). I read online that most people will not notice that you will have a panic attack or anxiety attack is it true?
Currently I'm finding other ways besides popping pills to help me battle anxiety. I have been reading up positive thinking books and book which helps me learn more about my situation. I am a Christian and this episode of anxiety(sadly not over :-() has made me grown in Christ too!
After approx 2 weeks I felt like I was kind of back to my normal self, I was able to go out with my friends and have a good time but I had to take xanax(0.5mg) before I went out.
To cut the long story short , I'm in an organizing committee for a camp and we had to stay over for a few days to prepare for the it. The camp was in the evening and I took a xanax before I went. I was suppose to take my meds every night but I skipped that night. I felt completely alright the entire night and I was actually enjoying myself because I knew most of the people there. We slept at about 7am lol and woke up and 9am. I still felt ok. The next day more people arrived(I didn't really know them). In the mid afternoon I felt a little weird and strange but I ignored it. After that we to the open field to play games. I started to perspire profusely and none of the people there were actually perspiring! A few of them asked me why I was perspiring so much I didn't know what to answer so I said the weather was hot and humid. I felt like I was losing focus but I forced myself to continue to play the games and pretending I was having a good time(pretending to smile) but I wasn't! The time was passing so slow and I felt like everyone was watching me. (Has any one heard of the fight-or-flight response?) I felt embarrassed and really conscious of my actions. Till then, I know I couldn't do it anymore, I walked back to one of the rooms and just bawled my eyes out. My close friends were there but I didn't tell them about my anxiety. I just told them I had urgent matter to settle and had to go home. They were really helpful and supportive and even wanted to send me home.
Has anyone ever encountered a similar situation before? I kind of fear how people in my school will see me from that day onwards (besides my group of friends). I read online that most people will not notice that you will have a panic attack or anxiety attack is it true?
Currently I'm finding other ways besides popping pills to help me battle anxiety. I have been reading up positive thinking books and book which helps me learn more about my situation. I am a Christian and this episode of anxiety(sadly not over :-() has made me grown in Christ too!