marco23
07-06-2012, 11:18 AM
This may sound really really stupid, but I need to tell somebody.
I've been struggling against anxiety for like a month, and I'm making a lot of progress, it's almost totally gone actually. But today I was a watching a movie and a torture scene came up. For a very very brief moment, like half a second, I caught myself enjoying it, I felt anger towards the victim and was enjoying to see him in that helpless situation. Then right away I stopped and asked myself what the hell I was doing cause this is sick and I have never felt like this before. This whole situation triggered my anxiety again cause now I'm scared I'm becoming a psychopath, violent person and soon it will go out of my control and I'll start hurting people. I've always been a peaceful person and have never caused any physical harm to anyone, I don't enjoy any kind of hardcore pornography and I honestly can't even look at gore.
Can someone explain me what happened and if I'm going to be fine? I feel like this is the only place that can relate and help me.
I'm 20 years old by the way.
I've been struggling against anxiety for like a month, and I'm making a lot of progress, it's almost totally gone actually. But today I was a watching a movie and a torture scene came up. For a very very brief moment, like half a second, I caught myself enjoying it, I felt anger towards the victim and was enjoying to see him in that helpless situation. Then right away I stopped and asked myself what the hell I was doing cause this is sick and I have never felt like this before. This whole situation triggered my anxiety again cause now I'm scared I'm becoming a psychopath, violent person and soon it will go out of my control and I'll start hurting people. I've always been a peaceful person and have never caused any physical harm to anyone, I don't enjoy any kind of hardcore pornography and I honestly can't even look at gore.
Can someone explain me what happened and if I'm going to be fine? I feel like this is the only place that can relate and help me.
I'm 20 years old by the way.