OCD and the weirdest strangest fear ever...is it just me?

[melanie0786]

I have OCD, so my therapist says. i think it's true because I can't stop counting the the number 9. I do it...I have no idea...how many times per day, but basically it's all day. my steps are in 9, etc. I won't let myself look at certain things aroudn school because I consider it "bad luck". I always think my actions will have negative effects on other people (and the two have basically no correlation, like my wearing red will cause my friend's demise).

But here's the weirdest fear ever...I have what I found out is called cacrophobia (sp?) and I'm actually...afraid...of feces. I doubt anyone else has this problem, but I live in a dorm and every time someone clogs the toilet, I actually get anxious and scared, not just grossed out. As if I just saw a dead child or something...It's really freaky! has anyone had a poop fear other than me?

[jitters]

I have OCD and I am afraid of being sick. That is actually vomiting. The counting thing is a very common OCD trait. Try to challenge yourself when you find yourself doing it. Dont do it and see what happens.

Dont worry you are not alone, many people here suffer with OCD alongside the Anxiety.

Stay Strong

Duncan

[juliana]

Hi Melanie. Lots of people with OCD have fear of things that are dirty, so I'm betting you're not the only one with a fear of poo. What could be dirtier, after all? I'm like jitters. I have a huge fear of vomiting -- being sick myself or someone being sick around me.

I don't have a big problem with OCD now, but your counting sounds very familiar to me. From the time I was a child, I would count things in fives. When I was feeling anxious, I would find myself repeating phrases that people had just said to me and recounting the syllables on my fingers until I reached a multiple of 5. I still do it occasionally -- I find myself doing it sometimes when I'm lying in bed. I also used to do piano fingering (when I wasn't at the piano) -- just the right-hand part, but I would do a mirror-image of it with my left-hand. I felt like I had to do it perfectly, all the way through to the end of the song, or else something horrible would happen to my family. I think OCD is our way of trying to gain control in a world that is full of things we can't control. You're definitely not alone in that.

Welcome. I hope you'll find some help here through chatting with others who understand what you're going through.