theycallmedree
06-16-2012, 07:29 PM
Hey everyone! I'm new here. So much of my anxiety stems from guilt over things I've done in the past. Does anyone else have this problem? I had a horrible episode over something to do with my internship at the beginning of May. I don't want to go into a ton of detail, but my supervisor told me that what I had done was fine and not to worry about it. I made an honest mistake, and the average person probably wouldn't have worried about it, but I couldn't stop feeling guilty about it. I didn't eat or sleep for a few days and had panic attacks all night long.
I'm now in therapy and on medicine, but the whole situation opened a whole new can of worms. I keep thinking about situations where I had made similar mistakes YEARS ago and having anxiety over them as well. One thing that I really struggle with is confidentiality - Should I have opened my mouth and said what I said? Should I have told my mom that a family friend and her husband are trying to have a baby? Should I have told my friends that a girl we hated in high school had plastic surgery? I go to school in a town with a big entertainment industry, and I feel like I can't gossip about celebrities because I know more about them than the average person (even though I have no personal connection to them).
My therapist says that I am really hard on myself, and I think that's probably true. The situation with my internship has spilled into my current job. I am so scarred from the last problem that I am hyper aware of everything I do at work. I ask my supervisor a million questions because I am afraid of making a mistake. I don't have the confidence to do anything by myself!
I've been on the medicine (Lexapro) for three weeks now. I can't wait until I'm finally adjusted to it!
I'm now in therapy and on medicine, but the whole situation opened a whole new can of worms. I keep thinking about situations where I had made similar mistakes YEARS ago and having anxiety over them as well. One thing that I really struggle with is confidentiality - Should I have opened my mouth and said what I said? Should I have told my mom that a family friend and her husband are trying to have a baby? Should I have told my friends that a girl we hated in high school had plastic surgery? I go to school in a town with a big entertainment industry, and I feel like I can't gossip about celebrities because I know more about them than the average person (even though I have no personal connection to them).
My therapist says that I am really hard on myself, and I think that's probably true. The situation with my internship has spilled into my current job. I am so scarred from the last problem that I am hyper aware of everything I do at work. I ask my supervisor a million questions because I am afraid of making a mistake. I don't have the confidence to do anything by myself!
I've been on the medicine (Lexapro) for three weeks now. I can't wait until I'm finally adjusted to it!