Jeordie
01-29-2007, 07:22 AM
I can't write a "how I recovered in four easy steps" guide yet.
But I'm dangerously close to that.
People, make a plan. Do it right now, or before going to sleep or first thing tomorrow morning while you drink your decaf cappuccino: write down, on paper or at the computer, those things that made you feel better in the past and especially, think of those that you know would make you feel better now and you don't do, because of some excuse you give yourself that doesn't deserve much of your attention. We all have those and they're probably different for everyone. But here's mine:
- Wake up earlier to see the morning again.
- Read "Self Help for your Nerves" by Claire Weekes.
- Re-Kick-Start my design studio.
- Just do not dwell on my symptoms even for a second. With just no excuses.
- Appreciate and be grateful (to myself, Life or God) for any step forward. Done some, close to doing more.
You do of course realize that this apparently small points recquired determination and self discipline and I'm making it because of that: I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE. I want to recover. I don't wanna get sucked up by anything wich isn't pure, beautiful sunny life.
Life sucks at times but that's it. Don't complain, wise up and move on. Do all the beautiful things you haven't done because "oh my I feel so ill".
I don't want to sound preachy, maybe slightly charismatic, but remember that: there are those projects, dreams, very simple things around that make us feel ALIVE but we don't see them, we don't recall them because we're too anxious or depressed to do that. So take the anxiety and depression apart for just few minutes and see what your life would be without this shit. Wonderful. Now you know you CAN HAVE that life.
And you wonder why the f*** did you forget about those things? They were so little and simple, why did you stop doing them if they made you feel NOT depressed and NOT anxious?
Because it happens. It was right, and now it is possible to recover and start again.
All my love and support to the people struggling with a condition that makes you see things too dark. Which I digged deep in myself.
But I'm dangerously close to that.
People, make a plan. Do it right now, or before going to sleep or first thing tomorrow morning while you drink your decaf cappuccino: write down, on paper or at the computer, those things that made you feel better in the past and especially, think of those that you know would make you feel better now and you don't do, because of some excuse you give yourself that doesn't deserve much of your attention. We all have those and they're probably different for everyone. But here's mine:
- Wake up earlier to see the morning again.
- Read "Self Help for your Nerves" by Claire Weekes.
- Re-Kick-Start my design studio.
- Just do not dwell on my symptoms even for a second. With just no excuses.
- Appreciate and be grateful (to myself, Life or God) for any step forward. Done some, close to doing more.
You do of course realize that this apparently small points recquired determination and self discipline and I'm making it because of that: I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE. I want to recover. I don't wanna get sucked up by anything wich isn't pure, beautiful sunny life.
Life sucks at times but that's it. Don't complain, wise up and move on. Do all the beautiful things you haven't done because "oh my I feel so ill".
I don't want to sound preachy, maybe slightly charismatic, but remember that: there are those projects, dreams, very simple things around that make us feel ALIVE but we don't see them, we don't recall them because we're too anxious or depressed to do that. So take the anxiety and depression apart for just few minutes and see what your life would be without this shit. Wonderful. Now you know you CAN HAVE that life.
And you wonder why the f*** did you forget about those things? They were so little and simple, why did you stop doing them if they made you feel NOT depressed and NOT anxious?
Because it happens. It was right, and now it is possible to recover and start again.
All my love and support to the people struggling with a condition that makes you see things too dark. Which I digged deep in myself.