Trying to get through an acute anxiety-provoking time

[soccerchica]

I must start by thanking everyone who is a part of this forum. I am so glad there is a place where people can connect over a very real and debilitating disease. I have had depression with anxiety likely my whole life. The first depressive episode I had was in middle school. Then again at the end of high school. Then again at the end of college (ie: times of great change). I was also diagnosed with GAD about a year ago. Its all a big mess.

I am currently in a state of flux, a time of change. I recently graduated from med school and will be beginning my residency in about 4 weeks. I have a 7 week vacation (about 3 weeks left). I have been staying with my family for 3 weeks, and will be headed back tomorrow to sign my lease on my new apartment. Then I will be moving.

I have a boyfriend who is going through depression himself right now. He is not there for me right now, but I cannot blame him for that.

I have nothing constant in my life right now, and it is really freaking me out. I am having horrible anxiety about leaving home and going back to a world with no stability. My thoughts are racing...my hands shaking...bouts of sweats...stomach in knots...unable to eat...

What do people do when they are in a acute anxiety state? Its the worst feeling in the world.

[mbenson213]

hmmmm... right now it seems you are focusing on the negative: fear of change. But the way I read it is you are about to embark on a new and exciting part of your life! It's a GOOD thing that you found a job, and are prepared about having a new place to live, and all that hard work you did in school is about to pay off! The more you think about this change being a negative change the worse you're going to feel about it. But since in reality the change is an awesome one, try to change those negative feelings to excited ones. Every time a "worry" pops into your head, stop it and tell yourself "this isn't something to worry about, this is something to be celebrated! I am excited about moving and starting my new job!" Even if this all sounds pretty cheesy, it is pretty well-known that changing your thought patterns can really help with anxiety. Also, try to focus more on the "here and now" aspects of life to the best of your ability. Sometimes we have to plan a little for future events (e.g. find an apartment, sign your new lease) but don't worry about things that you can't change. Hope this helps, and good luck. You should be proud of yourself :)