laurandisorder
05-12-2012, 12:21 AM
Hey everyone,
I have been dealing with the ol' anxiety and panic attacks quite well lately. A few minor setbacks, nothing really worth mentioning. Which is great - right?
But as seems to be my bad luck, just when one thing starts to go right, another takes a turn for the worst.
Yesterday my partner was informed that his work was shutting down and that his last day will be on Friday. He has been at the company for only 6 months, so there's no redundancy or severance package.
The last time he was unemployed (August 11- Jan 12), he was incredibly depressed, not at all motivated and we almost broke up over it. I applied for around 70 jobs on his behalf (he was so depressed he just didn't care) in that six months and barely got more than a dozen responses. He has an excellent resume, but the employment situation isn't that good that the moment.
This means I once again have to shoulder our entire mortgage - which is huge - and all of our bills for however long this is going to last... While in all likelihood he sits back and does nothing.
This nearly broke me last time it happened - and I wasn't really dealing with anxiety back then.
Sometimes I just want to scream at the sky! Unemployed twice in 12 months! Why him? Why us? We're still chasing tail - financially from the last time he was out of work!!
I'm already feeling tense, stressed and anxious over what is to come. I'm really angry at him - even though it's not really his fault. And I guess I'm already predicting what is going to happen based on past experiences, but in my experience, men seem to be creatures of habit (no offense) and isn't doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results the definition of insanity?
I'm sorry guys. I just had to vent.
I have been dealing with the ol' anxiety and panic attacks quite well lately. A few minor setbacks, nothing really worth mentioning. Which is great - right?
But as seems to be my bad luck, just when one thing starts to go right, another takes a turn for the worst.
Yesterday my partner was informed that his work was shutting down and that his last day will be on Friday. He has been at the company for only 6 months, so there's no redundancy or severance package.
The last time he was unemployed (August 11- Jan 12), he was incredibly depressed, not at all motivated and we almost broke up over it. I applied for around 70 jobs on his behalf (he was so depressed he just didn't care) in that six months and barely got more than a dozen responses. He has an excellent resume, but the employment situation isn't that good that the moment.
This means I once again have to shoulder our entire mortgage - which is huge - and all of our bills for however long this is going to last... While in all likelihood he sits back and does nothing.
This nearly broke me last time it happened - and I wasn't really dealing with anxiety back then.
Sometimes I just want to scream at the sky! Unemployed twice in 12 months! Why him? Why us? We're still chasing tail - financially from the last time he was out of work!!
I'm already feeling tense, stressed and anxious over what is to come. I'm really angry at him - even though it's not really his fault. And I guess I'm already predicting what is going to happen based on past experiences, but in my experience, men seem to be creatures of habit (no offense) and isn't doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results the definition of insanity?
I'm sorry guys. I just had to vent.