JessR
04-25-2012, 02:18 PM
I have been thinking about joining this forum for a while, and finally decided i just need a bit of support from people who understand what im talking about.
Im 19, and have been suffering from anxiety for about 5 years on and off. I had my first real attack when i was about 14, and ended up missing a lot of school and generally missing out on life. I struggled to leave my house, going to school had me in tears every morning, and even getting on a bus was a big thing for me.
Luckily, things got better for a few years, nothing extreme. But about 6 months ago i started to recognise the symptoms i didn't understand last time, and realised my anxiety was coming back with force. I was so scared i would end up the wreck that i was before, i went straight to my doctors and told them i needed some help. I knew that if things got as bad as they had last time, i would lose my job, and probably end up taking my life. I knew i couldn't live like that again.
I had a few weeks of meeting with a guy at the doctors to talk about my anxiety, but as you probably all know, that really does s**t all to make it go away. After a really rough time at a birthday party (me ending up sat on the floor of a toilet cubicle with my head between my knees) i knew i needed a bit more help than just CBT. I went back to the doctors straight away and they recommended i go on Citalopram. I have been on citalopram for about 4 months now, and it has helped me a lot. It takes away the sharpness of the anxiety, and helps me deal with it in more managable amounts.
The only thing is i feel, not numb, but not quite right anymore. I dont think this is all down to the citalopram, but i just feel really disconnected from my feelings. That sounds strange, but what i mean is, im wandering round all the time in a complete bubble. I feel like small things confuse me really easily, and it takes me a long time to be able to grasp what people are telling me. My social skills are terrible, i just get confused and upset and dont really know how to respond to people. Im just generally feeling quite isolated because of it, and was hoping to hear if anyone else ever feels like this, and what they do?
Sorry for my life story :P i didn't realise how much i had written!
Im 19, and have been suffering from anxiety for about 5 years on and off. I had my first real attack when i was about 14, and ended up missing a lot of school and generally missing out on life. I struggled to leave my house, going to school had me in tears every morning, and even getting on a bus was a big thing for me.
Luckily, things got better for a few years, nothing extreme. But about 6 months ago i started to recognise the symptoms i didn't understand last time, and realised my anxiety was coming back with force. I was so scared i would end up the wreck that i was before, i went straight to my doctors and told them i needed some help. I knew that if things got as bad as they had last time, i would lose my job, and probably end up taking my life. I knew i couldn't live like that again.
I had a few weeks of meeting with a guy at the doctors to talk about my anxiety, but as you probably all know, that really does s**t all to make it go away. After a really rough time at a birthday party (me ending up sat on the floor of a toilet cubicle with my head between my knees) i knew i needed a bit more help than just CBT. I went back to the doctors straight away and they recommended i go on Citalopram. I have been on citalopram for about 4 months now, and it has helped me a lot. It takes away the sharpness of the anxiety, and helps me deal with it in more managable amounts.
The only thing is i feel, not numb, but not quite right anymore. I dont think this is all down to the citalopram, but i just feel really disconnected from my feelings. That sounds strange, but what i mean is, im wandering round all the time in a complete bubble. I feel like small things confuse me really easily, and it takes me a long time to be able to grasp what people are telling me. My social skills are terrible, i just get confused and upset and dont really know how to respond to people. Im just generally feeling quite isolated because of it, and was hoping to hear if anyone else ever feels like this, and what they do?
Sorry for my life story :P i didn't realise how much i had written!