Lisa1
04-21-2012, 08:22 PM
Hello Everyone,
I am a new member to the forum and would like to introduce myself. My name is Lisa and I am 41 years old. I have suffered from anxiety for over 25 years interspersed with a few bouts of depression. In the last few years it seems to have gotten out of control and I do not feel like I have control of my life. I suffer from GAD, as diagnosed, and fit the profile to a "T".
I seems that in my life I have always had something to worry about...a school test or exam, if I was going to lose my job from downsizing, but the anxiety seemed to peak after the birth of my second child who is now 6. I always worry about the kids getting themselves hurt (2 boys) or if they hit their head I worried that it was going to be a concussion, regardless of how hard it was. After my second son I was worried about my health, then I was worried about turning 40 since I always used to joke when I was younger that I'd probably be dead by 40...and lately what's got me totally consumed is the talk about the end of the world in December this year. I can feel the panic and anxiety rising just thinking about it.
I am so freaked out by this and every time I hear people talking about it or on the TV/radio it sends this uncontrollable fear through my body. I start to shake and can't think straight, lose my appetite, can't sleep. Each morning that's the first thought through my mind...oh no, one day closer. I worry for my children, I worry for myself and my husband, I just...worry. It's an awful feeling and I just can't shake it.
The doctor put me on medication last year which seemed to help - Cipralex - but then I felt better and weaned myself off in December. Then the anxiety came back and stronger. I'm a mess right now. :(
I started taking the medication again and went to see a counselor for the first appt last week and am hoping that it is going to help, all I really want is for someone to tell me that the world's not going to end, that everything will be OK and I can be happy again because right now I don't feel like it ever will be. I don't want my kids to see me like this, and try to be positive around them as much as I can but I'm suffering on the inside.
I am happy I found this forum where I can "vent"...my hubby is supportive but doesn't know how to get me out of my mode of thinking...so it's great to be able to talk to others about this besides the counselor - people who can really understand because they're in the same position as me, just maybe worrying about something else.
I am a new member to the forum and would like to introduce myself. My name is Lisa and I am 41 years old. I have suffered from anxiety for over 25 years interspersed with a few bouts of depression. In the last few years it seems to have gotten out of control and I do not feel like I have control of my life. I suffer from GAD, as diagnosed, and fit the profile to a "T".
I seems that in my life I have always had something to worry about...a school test or exam, if I was going to lose my job from downsizing, but the anxiety seemed to peak after the birth of my second child who is now 6. I always worry about the kids getting themselves hurt (2 boys) or if they hit their head I worried that it was going to be a concussion, regardless of how hard it was. After my second son I was worried about my health, then I was worried about turning 40 since I always used to joke when I was younger that I'd probably be dead by 40...and lately what's got me totally consumed is the talk about the end of the world in December this year. I can feel the panic and anxiety rising just thinking about it.
I am so freaked out by this and every time I hear people talking about it or on the TV/radio it sends this uncontrollable fear through my body. I start to shake and can't think straight, lose my appetite, can't sleep. Each morning that's the first thought through my mind...oh no, one day closer. I worry for my children, I worry for myself and my husband, I just...worry. It's an awful feeling and I just can't shake it.
The doctor put me on medication last year which seemed to help - Cipralex - but then I felt better and weaned myself off in December. Then the anxiety came back and stronger. I'm a mess right now. :(
I started taking the medication again and went to see a counselor for the first appt last week and am hoping that it is going to help, all I really want is for someone to tell me that the world's not going to end, that everything will be OK and I can be happy again because right now I don't feel like it ever will be. I don't want my kids to see me like this, and try to be positive around them as much as I can but I'm suffering on the inside.
I am happy I found this forum where I can "vent"...my hubby is supportive but doesn't know how to get me out of my mode of thinking...so it's great to be able to talk to others about this besides the counselor - people who can really understand because they're in the same position as me, just maybe worrying about something else.