spidersghost
01-13-2007, 11:33 AM
When doctors or people close to me are asking me about how I feel when I say, "I get really surreal moments , when things don't seem quite real."
The best way I can explain it is the common feeling of deja vu.
Although it's worse and lasts longer.
Someone will be talking and we'll be sitting in the living room and I'm suddenly thinking --- "I've done this before, he's said this before, everything is the same way it was before. But when? When was it like this? Did I dream this? Am I dreaming this now? I'm not awake? If this has happened before, then perhaps it's a sign for something bad?" Etc, etc, etc. That's what my dialogue to myself in my head sounds like.
Cue the fuzzy nerve feeling throughout your body, the light-headedness, the widening of your eyes (or it feels like that) and the need to flee or your throat "clogging" up, hands and fingers not feeling real.
Those close to me have gotten so used to my deja vu freakouts that they can pick them up when I get them. "Are you alright?" or my mother, "Are you having an attack?"
Does anyone else experience this depersonalizing effect , too?
If so, when do you get it most often?
Is it around others? Alone?
I usually can get it anywhere.
The best way I can explain it is the common feeling of deja vu.
Although it's worse and lasts longer.
Someone will be talking and we'll be sitting in the living room and I'm suddenly thinking --- "I've done this before, he's said this before, everything is the same way it was before. But when? When was it like this? Did I dream this? Am I dreaming this now? I'm not awake? If this has happened before, then perhaps it's a sign for something bad?" Etc, etc, etc. That's what my dialogue to myself in my head sounds like.
Cue the fuzzy nerve feeling throughout your body, the light-headedness, the widening of your eyes (or it feels like that) and the need to flee or your throat "clogging" up, hands and fingers not feeling real.
Those close to me have gotten so used to my deja vu freakouts that they can pick them up when I get them. "Are you alright?" or my mother, "Are you having an attack?"
Does anyone else experience this depersonalizing effect , too?
If so, when do you get it most often?
Is it around others? Alone?
I usually can get it anywhere.