Jbrod1386
04-15-2012, 07:15 PM
Im 25 Yrs old and i have suffered from anxiety for over 3 years. there are days that i feel like falling asleep and never waking up if it means i no longer have to fight for sanity. But i cant because giving up never got u anything. I cant tell u when or how i got anxiety but ill always remember that first time. Sitting there...neck starts to sweat, nausea feeling, body feels extremely hot, ur insides start to shake, heart starts to pound and worst of all u feel like something terrible is wrong and then the anxiety attack turns into a panic attack which is a whole different ballpark. The thing is, to the visible eye ur fine, but u feel like ur dying.
Anxiety has taken control of my life. I cant go on vacations, eat at restaurants, go to movie theaters, to unfamiliar places. I have to have my car with me at all times, when and If i go out with friends and family its to one local bar that is 10 min from my house, huge inside and has 2 exits. My phone has to stay charged at all times.
I was so proud of myself because i felt like after a lifetime i was starting to feel better. I stopped going to my shrink, stopped taking the medicine. Started to venture outside my home. It wasn't easy at all but i forced myself little by little.
But now its back, but its different this time. I don't get the same symptoms as i use to. Instead i feel like I'm gonna dye at anytime. I know it sounds stupid but its true.
About 3 weeks ago i was woken up at 5am with excruciating chest pain. Now I've had these pains many times before, but this one time really freaked me out. My boyfriend was at work already so i was alone. I was shaking so bad i couldn't call him. Eventually i calmed down and went to bed. When i woke up the next morning its all i could think of, then the next day i called out of work bc i didn't feel too good. I had a relaxing day with my boyfriend and then at the end of it when i was a lone i freaked. I drove to my dads in tears telling him im losing my mind, that im having a panic attack and im not ok. The next wk i went to the doctor, got an EKG that came back good, Doc said my heart sounds good and my breathing sounds ok.
Ok so i freaked myself out more, but they why cant i stop thinking about dying? I still feel weird pressure or tightness, pinching and stabbing in my chest. Makes me wonder what else can be wrong.
I don't know what i did in my life that was so bad i was cursed with this, i always saw myself as a nice good hearted person. I want to be done with it all. Does anyone know how i can eliminate the anxiety for good?
Anxiety has taken control of my life. I cant go on vacations, eat at restaurants, go to movie theaters, to unfamiliar places. I have to have my car with me at all times, when and If i go out with friends and family its to one local bar that is 10 min from my house, huge inside and has 2 exits. My phone has to stay charged at all times.
I was so proud of myself because i felt like after a lifetime i was starting to feel better. I stopped going to my shrink, stopped taking the medicine. Started to venture outside my home. It wasn't easy at all but i forced myself little by little.
But now its back, but its different this time. I don't get the same symptoms as i use to. Instead i feel like I'm gonna dye at anytime. I know it sounds stupid but its true.
About 3 weeks ago i was woken up at 5am with excruciating chest pain. Now I've had these pains many times before, but this one time really freaked me out. My boyfriend was at work already so i was alone. I was shaking so bad i couldn't call him. Eventually i calmed down and went to bed. When i woke up the next morning its all i could think of, then the next day i called out of work bc i didn't feel too good. I had a relaxing day with my boyfriend and then at the end of it when i was a lone i freaked. I drove to my dads in tears telling him im losing my mind, that im having a panic attack and im not ok. The next wk i went to the doctor, got an EKG that came back good, Doc said my heart sounds good and my breathing sounds ok.
Ok so i freaked myself out more, but they why cant i stop thinking about dying? I still feel weird pressure or tightness, pinching and stabbing in my chest. Makes me wonder what else can be wrong.
I don't know what i did in my life that was so bad i was cursed with this, i always saw myself as a nice good hearted person. I want to be done with it all. Does anyone know how i can eliminate the anxiety for good?