mfa10
04-04-2012, 12:15 PM
Hi all,
New here, but seems like a great place. I apologize for what could be a pretty lengthy post.
I have suffered from anxiety since my first year of high school. I don't really know what triggers it, as it appears to be random. For the longest time, it was health anxiety. For whatever reason now this has changed. I now suffer from exhausting bouts of extreme paranoia and irrational/unrealistic fears.
My latest set-back:
Last week, I put together a package to mail to some friends several states away. It's mostly filled with silly gifts meant to just bring a smile to their faces. However, it also contains some very personal things (in this case, a satirical video we all made together) as well. I sent the package via USPS priority mail, which is supposed to deliver within 2-3 days, but they have not yet received it and it has been over the 2-3 days. I am now paralyzed by fear that the package is lost for good and someone will find it, open it, and steal the video and post it all over the internet. I know I'm probably just being really impatient, and even in the chance that the package is lost it probably won't be stolen and end up online. For some reason however, my anxiety won't let it go. It's tearing me up inside and I won't feel better until I know they have it in their hands. My every day life is being thrown off and I feel like I'm in a trance.
What can I do?
New here, but seems like a great place. I apologize for what could be a pretty lengthy post.
I have suffered from anxiety since my first year of high school. I don't really know what triggers it, as it appears to be random. For the longest time, it was health anxiety. For whatever reason now this has changed. I now suffer from exhausting bouts of extreme paranoia and irrational/unrealistic fears.
My latest set-back:
Last week, I put together a package to mail to some friends several states away. It's mostly filled with silly gifts meant to just bring a smile to their faces. However, it also contains some very personal things (in this case, a satirical video we all made together) as well. I sent the package via USPS priority mail, which is supposed to deliver within 2-3 days, but they have not yet received it and it has been over the 2-3 days. I am now paralyzed by fear that the package is lost for good and someone will find it, open it, and steal the video and post it all over the internet. I know I'm probably just being really impatient, and even in the chance that the package is lost it probably won't be stolen and end up online. For some reason however, my anxiety won't let it go. It's tearing me up inside and I won't feel better until I know they have it in their hands. My every day life is being thrown off and I feel like I'm in a trance.
What can I do?