odes16
01-08-2007, 04:13 PM
Hello, my names brodie, i believe i suffer from anxiety , and its ruining my life and im here to ask for help from anybody who can help. I always feel that whenever i walk, people are watching me like at school when i walk down the hallways, i feel like their watching me, and saying stuff about me, im always nervous to talk infront of people, and presenting projects etc.. im very shy, non talkative, infront of strangers, girls, and even friends. I always have ideas in my head to say to them but i never say it. My nervous system takes over, i have short breath, my muscles all tighten up, and i shake, i almost panic. I also walk different, when i walk when no ones around , im fine. When i walk when people are there , in my surroundings ,my walk goes all weird, my chest muscles get very tight, and my arms dont swing, and my back is straight up, i have no walk. After i hang with people, i get home and think about the stuff i should of never done when hanging with them, and blame myself, and wish i did other stuff instead. Im too sketchy to even talk on the phone. On texting, and msn and internet i can talk to people no problem at all, but in person im a wreck. I cant even continue my life for a future job cause all the jobs iwant involve customer service, and talking to people in general at times. I quit my part time job at fast food places cause its always talking to people and i suck at it. I have bad attendence in school cause i just dont wanna go in general cause of my anxiety. THerefore all of this leads, to i need help badly, and im desperate, i feel so down on myself all the time, and i need to change things starting soon. I want a girlfriend and a steady job and good grades, and be able to interact with people. Im a very good looking guy not to be cocky, i have a nice body with abs and pecs, i get told all the time im good looking and could get so many girls, but im just to anxiety to take advantage of that, the girls always call my shy and im scared of that now. If anyone could please help me , i would appreciate that soo much . Sincerly brodie!