Heres whats up please give me your opinions

[mommy.n]

Ok so I figured out a few things. Since I was about 13 or so I started obsessing & making myself feel bad for anything that I did wrong or considered wrong. I couldn't stand anyone being mad at me or doing wrong to someone. When the anxiety developed much worse all those "things" came up but blown out of proportion. Most of them were silly & laughable. My sister-in-law & husband keep telling me that those things are so silly & not even bad things or mistakes or whatever.
Whenever I got rid of the anxiety for a while (longest time of no anxiety was 4yrs straight).....ruined that last summer by thinking I didn't need the meds cuz I was feeling perfect. I relapsed then & got better for a few months & now relapse a month ago from lowering meds.

So my anxiety is not about getting sick, life threatening things, work, finances or anything like that........but those things I mentioned above get way escalated when I'm anxious. I tend to write points Down about whatever happened to try to analyze it so that I would be ok with it.

I'm scared, I'm worried I can't get my thinking to be normal again. It makes me hate myself sometimes & I can't breathe.

I hope this made sense.

[alankay]

Yep........ anxiety playing it's not so funny game. Are you resuming meds? Alankay

[mommy.n]

Yep........ anxiety playing it's not so funny game. Are you resuming meds? Alankay

Yes I am, before quoting last summer I was on the lowest dose of Effexor xr......4 weeks after it hit hard & after a few months I reached the highest dose.....I've been on that for about 7 months (& feeling really good for those 7 months) & got prego (12 weeks pregnant) lowers the dose a step & anxiety hit hard again.
So now I'm back up to the highest (yes while pregnant, I know it's scary) almost 3 weeks in & I am hoping I'll go back to normal soon.
I'm beyond scared

[mommy.n]

Does anyone else worry or think of the things I mentioned above when in an anxious state?

[Krismf]

for me it took almost exactly four weeks for me to start feeling better while taking effexor xr. till then i almost gave up so there is a light at the end of the tunnel. just hang in there. one day you will wake up and think that yesterday was a great day for no reason at all and things will improve from there. not all gone at once but better and better.

[mommy.n]

Thanks for your encouragement! I wrote you back on your other post......please keep me posted on how u r doing

[gibbyarsenal]

I havent thought of anxiety as a problem just depression til i lost hope. i've suffered from depression since maybe i was 8, i didnt know i was thinking unlike everyone else it seems. i started seeing my gp when i was 18 when i couldnt take it anymore. i had friends around me all the time after that then but know i have just enough to count on one hand coz im scared to let them in or be with them. i think i've made a bad move changing to cymbalta and it doesnt help having to appeal ESA. i hope anyone will share their thoughts with me. I've not put myself on the internet like this before but i've read a few threads and wanted to talk.