new to this site

[TiaLimaria]

Hi,

I'm new to this site. Have suffered way too long with agoraphobia, amongst other things, and I am soooooo tired of chasing my tail. Presently working on finding a professional to help, but have limited income and no health insurance.

I've been worrying constantly, on a yes, daily basis since I was called for jury duty last March. I don't have a doctor to write me a note, and I just don't know what I am going to do if I cannot find anyone to help me.

Has anyone else run into issues like this? The more work I do at getting out of this "hole" I kind of feel more confused, and a whole lot more hopeless (something a year ago I had pretty much been overcoming). This has just been such a monumental setback for me, I am not going out of my home at all any more. Been working on just sitting outside for periods of time, whereas prior to this I was going further from home. I know in my "mind" I shouldn't feel this way, but I just do.

:?

[jitters]

I dont know what to suggest we have the National Health Service, over here medical assistance is free.

But if you have no money and a PC try some kind of self help system a good one is Attacking Anxiety a Great self help program from a set of people called the Midwest Center for Anxiety and Depression it helped me a lot.

It comes in 15 Audio lessons and a large workbook. It can be downloaded free using a program called bittorrent (google it) the torrent or file can be found in most torrent search sites (run the word torrents through google). This is not spam I have nothing to do with them but I just think it may help.

[TiaLimaria]

Thanks, I already have the program. It did work pretty good, and I still use many of the techniques, it got me this far, but still so far to go. I have spent the day looking up stuff. Not gonna give up hope. Something has to give...just gonna take it one step at a time, and work at not projecting things, work on crossing the bridge when I get to it, and not thinking too far ahead. I always get myself in a mess when I start thinking too far ahead, or back...just gotta think in the moment!!!

thanks for your input :)

[jitters]

It's good that others are finding this program it is a good introduction to the illness. Keep on truckin girl.

[TiaLimaria]

Well, it's been a while since I have been on. Lots has happened since last I was here. My daughter had unexpected kidney surgery...wow, that through me for a loop...I was beside myself in fear for over a week! We managed through, still doing all the follow ups for that. Along with some other health issues for her. Still I have not been able to find help. The more I delve into things the more walls I am hitting. Thought we were going to get help with fuel assistance (our bills are outrageous, we heat with electric...) and that's not going to happen because I cannot get all the info I need from my ex, he won't give it unless he speaks with the people themselves-something that isnt going to happen, he doesn't need to know my business (just another form of his control that got me in this whole mess to begin with).

I'm floundering here, seriously! I still keep my faith, believe things will come together somehow, that I will get back on the path.

So, that's where I am at...oh, I am pushing myself to socialize a bit more (very lil unfortunately, cause inside I am screaming to be a social butterfly).

Eh, whadda ya gonna do?

hugs Tia

[juliana]

Hi Tia. I'm glad to hear you're getting out and socializing a bit more. I've been where you were. I stayed inside for 4 years -- to scared to go out. There was a light at the end of the tunnel, though. It sounds like you're starting to find your way.

I'm sorry about all the financial worries you're going through. I know how that feels and it just increases the anxiety (it's all encompassing) and makes you feel like you want to lock yourself away and hide. I hope things get easier for you.

I live in Canada and we have national healthcare. If you need help, you can get it and it's free. So, I won't start my rant on the unfairness of the U.S. healthcare system. I think it's totally unfair and wrong -- but I'm sure you feel that way too. Being sick and needing help is stressful enough; trying to find the money to pay for the help you need is just infuriating. I wish you weren't in that situation.

Anyway, I hope things improve for you and I'm glad to see you're maintaining your sense of humour. All the best to you!

[jitters]

Welcome back Tia :woot: